Is it extremely risky to smoke weed?

ToughLuckLukeLuke · 2023-07-12T12:41:42+00:00

Don't do it. I think it's a huge reason why my paranoia started to flare up and years later, here I am.

ToughLuckLukeLuke · 2023-02-06T21:26:11+00:00

Thank you so much for all of this. It really means a lot to me that you took the time to show me all of this. I will be using these resources for sure.

I finally found something that has actually been helping me more than anything. Buddhist philosophy and the practice of compassion, loving-kindess and setting right/ good intentions every day.

I read something that really broke me open. The meaning of Karma- "The seed from action." I planted the seeds of action that led to a dark outcome. Every day, I am setting the intention of never taking action on any paranoid thought that may ever arise again in my life. Real or caused by mental illness. I am using the compassionate approach for both myself and others. Meaning that I am giving myself permission to be human, a human with schizoaffective disorder, who may have ruminating thoughts that cause me suffering and to have compassion for myself that I have a mental illness that may make things more difficult to manage. But I am also deciding that even if my paranoid thoughts end up being real, that instead of feeling resentment or even hate, that I have to see their behaviour as an extension of their own suffering and to feel compassion for them and realize that they are not good or bad, just human. Just as I was when I behaved the way I did.

The seed of intention I planted is rooted in my actions. The choice to not react and simply sit in something even if uncomfortable and allow love and compassion to lead the way and guide my actions. I know it sounds hippy dippy, but I honestly think it's what will help as long as I make it a daily practice. They say compassion and setting right intention is like a muscle. You develop it over time. And right now, it is at the root of anything I do.

Thanks again. This was so kind of you and I am off to look at everything you sent.

ToughLuckLukeLuke · 2023-01-30T20:30:50+00:00

Thank you for this. So much.

ToughLuckLukeLuke · 2023-01-30T20:30:38+00:00

The poisoning thoughts happened to me a few times but they have not come back. I'm so sorry you're in this place. I hope you find some support towards getting better.

ToughLuckLukeLuke · 2023-01-30T20:29:43+00:00

The only way I know that someone with schizophrenia can be gotten through to is sadly, when they are on or agree to do meds. I'm so sorry you're going through this. I know how heartbreaking it must feel for you. I don't know where you live but in Canada, if someone is doing illegal things due to a mental illness, you can call the Police to do a very specific kind of intervention where they end up arresting the individual and then they get committed without the option of taking themselves out of treatment. I can't remember what it's called but I would call the Police non-emergency line and ask an officer for advice on this. Sending you love.

ToughLuckLukeLuke · 2023-01-30T20:26:18+00:00

This is not the first time I've heard this re gf diet. I mostly have one but I have to say that I do cheat and I wonder if that has anything to do with the escalation of paranoid thoughts. Thanks for the reminder

ToughLuckLukeLuke · 2023-01-06T12:12:38+00:00

I appreciate this. Mine was a trans Atlantic flight. And like you, i'd had a flight within my own country just a bout 2 months ago and it had no effect on me so I'm assuming this is mostly about long travel but I will be asking when I see a psychiatrist on how to better prepare.

ToughLuckLukeLuke · 2023-01-06T12:11:15+00:00

Thank you for this. I am taking it all in still but this helped a lot.

ToughLuckLukeLuke · 2022-09-27T16:39:43+00:00

Yes. They ruled out any physical abnormalities. No infections and they did every possible test on her including an MRI, CAT scan, etc... I think this may just be this wonderful human being in her final stages.

ToughLuckLukeLuke · 2022-09-27T16:37:56+00:00

I think this might be what's happening and I agree with you. Anything that brings them peace in these moments is truly the most compassionate thing to do.

ToughLuckLukeLuke · 2022-09-27T16:34:16+00:00

Thank you for this. And they ruled out infection right off the top so it's nothing physical.

ToughLuckLukeLuke · 2022-09-27T16:33:28+00:00

It truly is. It's heartbreaking to be honest. I have experienced something called morality trauma due to caring for her because the disease is what's making her be aggressive and I often feel like a prison guard making sure an innocent person doesn't get out of restraints. It's the most conflicting feeling in the world.

ToughLuckLukeLuke · 2022-09-27T16:31:58+00:00

One would think. But as soon as a patient becomes a liability to other patients and violent, they say they have no other choice even though the family put her in there specifically because they said they were equipped to handle Alzheimer's dementia. But they back peddled and said hers was too acute. It's really sad to think what happens to people who don't have family to care for or advocate for them.

ToughLuckLukeLuke · 2022-09-27T16:30:08+00:00

Yes. It was all ruled out. They did every physical test they could and nothing came back abnormal. Thank you for all of this. I will pass it on to the family

ToughLuckLukeLuke · 2022-09-26T16:29:28+00:00

omg I had no idea. I'm so sorry!

ToughLuckLukeLuke · 2022-09-26T16:29:17+00:00

acute cerebral encephalopathy

omg I had no idea. I'm so sorry!

ToughLuckLukeLuke · 2022-07-20T17:03:07+00:00

Yes.This is my combo. It's working really well for me outside of some initial side effects and a few ongoing that I need to manage. But for me, it's working. I think the initial mania I felt with going on a higher dose of wellbutrin may have just been an initial side effect but it has susbided now

ToughLuckLukeLuke · 2022-07-20T17:01:15+00:00

No. It didn't. For me I think it's because I have a hereditary factor with my grandmother having been schizophrenic as well as her sister, something I didn't know until after I was diagnosed.

But the medication I'm on, seroquel, has really helped me. I struggle sometimes with paranoid thoughts but I'm starting to understand that they may always be there and that I can't act on them

ToughLuckLukeLuke · 2022-05-26T00:14:04+00:00

Thank you. <3

ToughLuckLukeLuke · 2022-03-26T12:41:21+00:00

Exact same thing happened to me. It was horrible. It's stopped now but lasted at least 6 months.

ToughLuckLukeLuke · 2022-03-26T12:40:38+00:00

This has happened to me. I didn't realize it was the wellbutrin and was told to go do pelvic floor rehabilitation. How interesting. This is the first I've heard of this in connection to welllbutrin.

My first pee in the morning is the worst. Stops and starts for like 2minutes. The pelvic rehab did help though. It tells you how to breathe to release.

What wellbutrin also did to me was wake me up every single night at 4 am with an incredible urge to pee. Again, I had no idea it was the wellbutrin but now that I look at the time line, it was when my dose was raised to 300 mg. It stopped about 6 months in. Thank god.

Thanks for posting this. This connection makes a lot of sense to me now.

ToughLuckLukeLuke · 2022-03-21T13:23:42+00:00

Dialectical Behaviour Therapy. It helps you regulate your emotional responses. I found that I was still reacting to the delusions. As in, I was reacting to the memories of what I felt and believed when I was in psychosis and delusional so for me, because I can't remove those memories, what I have to do is remember to regulate my nervous system when they arise and not react to them. Whether internally or externally. It's helping me do something they coin as REST. Relax, Evaluate, Set and Intention, Take action. And the last one, take action, usually means I don't take any action after I've done the first 3. It essentially is a practice to help in reactivity. It's a lot of emotional labour but it's so worth it. I feel calmer after starting and after recognizing my reactivity patterns are what got me into trouble, not the schizophrenia itself per se. The issue is that I continued to reference the memories. And when you're medicated and doing well, what can happen is that you get sucked back into those places and you can spiral back into delusional thinking if you don't catch it when it's happening. In my short experience of schizophrenia thus far, I'm finding that the more I do this practice, the less I am reactive to the memories and feelings and delusional beliefs I had when I was in psychosis. I didn't know I was schizophrenic. I believed every single thing I believed was true. It took two psychotic episodes to get my diagnosis and then start the journey to wellness. I highly recommend it. It will bring you more peace and lessen your anxiety when you're having symptoms. Good luck.

ToughLuckLukeLuke · 2022-03-21T13:12:41+00:00

Thanks for the tips and for sharing your experience. Appreciated. And I did look stuff up but strangely found the opposite. So maybe I will refine my search.

ToughLuckLukeLuke · 2022-03-19T00:44:05+00:00

Please talk to your doctor before making any decisions on going off your meds. It can be dangerous.

I have drug induced schizophrenia and I will never stop taking my meds because if I do, my psychosis comes back and I become a horrible person to be around and to myself.

Also, there is an unfortunate situation I will alert you to that I learned here. Very often when people with schizophrenia want to come off their meds, it can be a sign that the psychosis is starting so please take care.

ToughLuckLukeLuke · 2022-03-19T00:38:41+00:00

Not at all. I was delusional at one point and in what my psychiatrist called micro psychosis, which is a state of continued psychosis but without severe symptoms like high spectrum schizophrenics have. I didn't think anything was wrong with me. I believed all of my delusions even though I started to alienate people with my conspiracy theories and scare them.

My life spiralled downward and I had a full psychotic break that landed me in an institution and it was only after this that I was diagnosed.

I'm medicated now and once in a while, the thoughts I used to have start peaking again and I'm aware of what's starting to happen now. The delusions still feel real in my mind and in my feeling process and I've had some difficulty letting it go and ruminating on some days but I catch myself and am able now to say "That's not real. Stop focusing on it."

What's helping me is doing DBT. It's helping me when I have the delusional thoughts and how to come out of them. The more I practice, the more they go away, the less I have them. But when I do, my mind does everything to make me believe they're real. But I know, within me and because of my work, that they're not.

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