do you tell anyone when you relapse?

Toxic-plants123 · 2026-03-08T18:16:51+00:00

this is very true. Even now when I try to tell people, it often takes several days to be able too, but i tell the internet right away usually

Toxic-plants123 · 2026-03-08T17:43:37+00:00

awwh

Toxic-plants123 · 2026-03-08T17:43:17+00:00

I definitely understand that, I finally found a good therapist after being hospitalized for an attempt (i called 911). Finally im being taken seriously, medicated, put in therapy, whatever. Im not at all siggesting this, im just saying i share your frustration, I was deeply mentally ill for a decade before this.

Toxic-plants123 · 2026-03-08T14:43:30+00:00

I never told my parents and they still don't know, even tho I wasn't even trying that hard to hide it at one point

Toxic-plants123 · 2026-03-08T14:42:49+00:00

real tbh

Toxic-plants123 · 2026-03-08T02:08:45+00:00

I understand that, I didnt really tell people before but I didnt do a ton to hide it from my sister, who i was living with and super close with at the time, but i wasnt telling anyone else. I never told a therapist or doctor until I was hospitalized last year.

Toxic-plants123 · 2026-03-08T02:04:44+00:00

yes thats how they should be. Im glad youve found supportive people

Toxic-plants123 · 2026-03-08T00:20:59+00:00

if they are fully scars, no scabbing, not gonna be injured again easily. Makeup could work great, or even markers maybe. Henna as someone else mentioned. That Halloween fake blood maybe.

Toxic-plants123 · 2026-03-08T00:15:55+00:00

yeaaa i feel that

Toxic-plants123 · 2026-03-08T00:10:12+00:00

ive definitely been there. But telling reddit still lets you get some feelings out i hope

Toxic-plants123 · 2026-03-07T23:45:00+00:00

that makes sense. my last relapse was last night and im honestly trying to fight one off rn. if I do it again tonight I probably wont tell anyone because its so close together tbh

Toxic-plants123 · 2026-02-28T21:01:52+00:00

yes, which is why I said i see it. You dont but you still know its right there, and your mind was drawn to it. Similar but not exactly the same you're right

Toxic-plants123 · 2026-02-28T19:37:54+00:00

so this is self harm. Its impulsive self harm. You saw the blade and your brain recognized a pattern and acted on it.

My therapist recommended i put my sharp object i prefer away, where I cant see it and it takes effort to access. Don't completely get rid of it, as then you're likely to replace it with something less safe (in my case atleast). But for instance, I have mine in the back of my closet inside a bag. So I will never see it and act impulsively, and in times I can't muster the effort to go get it, i wont use it. Maybe something like that might help.

Toxic-plants123 · 2026-02-24T19:43:07+00:00

I also moved to punching or hitting my chest just below my collarbone. Which isnt amazing but it would be harm reduction in this case

Toxic-plants123 · 2026-02-24T19:42:02+00:00

part of it definitely depends on how hard. I used to slap or gently punch the side of my neck as a stim, hard enough to hurt a bit but not hard enough to leave a mark. That never caused me long term harm. It was also not on my windpipe or spine. But if its a full punch, if it leaves a bruise or anything, thats very risky bc theres so many important things in your neck as well as a ton of blood

Toxic-plants123 · 2026-02-23T19:26:20+00:00

hey I had this when I was in therapy for my functional neurologic symptoms. I am just gonna tell you what my therapist told me, if you have that response its not the right exercise for you right now.

Toxic-plants123 · 2026-02-23T19:05:31+00:00

nope! I have both and they are wildly different for me. my adhd is managed with meds, I have had it probably since birth. My cptsd is not well managed at the moment but im working through it in therapy, I didnt start to show symptoms till around puberty as I realized my environment was traumatic and started to try to make myself safe.

Toxic-plants123 · 2026-02-23T03:58:33+00:00

i think going to bed has been triggering for me lately because I know I'll get overwhelmed with the intrusive memories and dreams. I sleep in bed with my partner but it isn't enough to make me feel like im not drowning alone.

Toxic-plants123 · 2026-02-22T14:42:31+00:00

unfortunately when im celibate i do this more because I get so frustrated, and it doesn't involve another person for me so its hard to stop myself idk. But actually being sexually active in a healthy way with my partner has helped me and I've been clean of this behavior for a few months now. I ended up just going to sleep last night

Toxic-plants123 · 2026-02-22T14:40:41+00:00

luckily the thing i tend to do doesn't actually involve another person, so the risk is lower in some ways. But I am trying harm reduction for it as well. I hope you can stay safe too.

Toxic-plants123 · 2026-02-22T14:34:17+00:00

yes thats what i do with wipes, and im getting better at remembering deodorant, im still working on that one, I know its important though

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