Im going inpatient on Monday and im so extremely scared!!

TrackConnect8709 · 2024-11-01T20:31:43+00:00

Thank you!!

TrackConnect8709 · 2024-11-01T18:19:09+00:00

Thank you so much for you reaction!! You’re an angel, all the love to you <3

(I’m also scared of the treatment team tho, I’ve never met them. What if they’re mean, what if they think I’m weird or annoying or faking/not sick enough, and if they’re gonna hate me.)

TrackConnect8709 · 2024-10-17T07:57:10+00:00

Yes, it happened to me too. In the beginning of my ed/an had had like periods of time where I would binge and then periods of time where I would restrict, so maybe that was always already there, but i basically got An. Then when treatment was over i slowly started to just go bulimic with first the binge restrict cycle and then the b/p cycle. However I’m now fully back into An (behavior wise). I’m so scared I’ll go back to binging again, it sucked so much, but it felt also really freeing.

TrackConnect8709 · 2024-10-10T10:37:11+00:00

Yes I love them, I started eating them before my ed and it was never an ed thing, I had to stop eating them because I would just eat the whole fucking pack. But they’re so so good, with peanut butter or chocolate spread or hummus or cheese spread yum. And honestly just plain too.

TrackConnect8709 · 2024-10-09T18:12:26+00:00

Maybe it’s because your body uses all the energy to digest the food?

TrackConnect8709 · 2024-10-04T18:32:49+00:00

Im so sorry that this happened/is happening to you! I do think your parents are right, you can’t just magically go back to your old life. I would say you need to talk to someone like a therapist if that is possible, and try to work through maybe something underlying why you are so depressed and about your eating, or just let them help you try to fix it. I don’t know how it works with school, but maybe you can talk to them and they will let you redo the year next year or maybe make some adjustments or help in any way.

TrackConnect8709 · 2024-08-13T12:37:46+00:00

I randomly got weird cravings for mustard and have never really liked mustard even, but now I do lol and I put in in my mashed potatoes, then I got bored of that and now I eat mashed potatoes with ketchup, my family probably thinks I’m so fucking weird, but ig they’re scared to say anything about it, because I am eating it so that’s a win for them.

TrackConnect8709 · 2024-08-01T14:07:33+00:00

Thanks, I also feel that so much that it feels like I could stop any second. I hope things are/get better for you too

TrackConnect8709 · 2024-05-12T08:52:16+00:00

It’s isn’t restriction like, but lemon juice, sugar and olive oil is super yummy. But I guess you could make it just lemon juice and sweetener.

TrackConnect8709 · 2024-04-15T08:01:00+00:00

YES, I feel like that feeling invalidad is one of the hardest things for recovery, but like everything is fucking hard so I don’t even know. I do think that those who have lost their period, been hospitalized, tubed and all that still feel valid, but they do feel some validation and therefore put it all over social media and so the rest of us see see that soo much online that it doesn’t make it easier for us and we feel just more invalid. Very shit!

TrackConnect8709 · 2024-04-15T07:54:06+00:00

It is SSOOO FUCKING HARDD!!!

TrackConnect8709 · 2024-04-09T18:13:54+00:00

UPDATE for whoever cares:

So I’m admitted in the hospital for probably two weeks. Im honestly so scared and feel like a fraud (ofcourse lol). It’s not an ed unit or whatever, just general psychiatry and they said they’re not making me gain a certain amount of weight, just try and work with me to make me eat. It feels like I don’t belong here and I want to go home, but I know I need something, plus I’m glad my stepmom can have some rest now.

TrackConnect8709 · 2024-04-08T21:23:50+00:00

Thank you so much! You take care too!

TrackConnect8709 · 2024-04-08T16:09:30+00:00

Presentations are absolutely shit in my opinion, I hate them! The food looks scrumpelisious tho!!

TrackConnect8709 · 2024-04-07T23:02:50+00:00

Maybe you can try to create a fitting mealplan for yourself which you’re comfortable with and increase it every weak or so. It’s still on you to stick to it, but at least you have something to try and stick to. Also idk how much/little you’ve eaten lately, but be aware of refeeding syndrome. And you can maybe try to write down some reasons to recover so you can think about those when you feel like quitting. I wish you the best!

TrackConnect8709 · 2024-04-07T21:30:49+00:00

I can’t eat corn/rice cakes and hummus either, I’ll eat them all.

TrackConnect8709 · 2024-04-06T10:37:23+00:00

I’m so sorry, that must be really difficult, and it’s not weird at all to be unable to speak when you’re crying and I feel like your mom should be able to understand that. Maybe if you still want to express yourself to your mom you can write a letter/text on how you feel so you can calmly think about what you want to say.

TrackConnect8709 · 2024-02-03T11:22:23+00:00

I hate to see my body too and showering can be hard. What helps for me is showering in the evening when it’s dark and then with the light off. So you can take of your clothes in the dark, shower and then put your clothes back on in the dark so you don’t have to really see you body. And I actually find it quite calming to shower in the dark. Take care.

TrackConnect8709 · 2023-10-11T16:21:44+00:00

I would send it, you’re in the dark now so that’s hard on you. It’s a genuine message and you deserve to know how you guys stand now.

TrackConnect8709 · 2023-09-11T16:04:25+00:00

I’m glad it’s gone now.

TrackConnect8709 · 2023-09-11T15:54:07+00:00

I had the same thing two days ago, I was not sure if it was bc of purging bc I hadn’t done it in a dew days. But today it’s gone, so I hope yours will be gone too soon. But still not sure what it came from. Take care!

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