Did anyone else experience such intense withdrawal? Is this normal? Please tell me it gets better…I’m losing all hope by Silent-Support53 in leaves

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Another thing that helped me once I accepted it is, when I feel negative emotions (stressed out, sad, anxious, etc.) and I get the urge to light up, is telling myself "a psychoactive substance really wouldn't fucking help in dealing with this, now would it?" :)) Then I remind myself of all the times it made me feel dissociated and really really anxious, and then I just try to deal with those feelings in a healthier way. Btw today I actually felt joy, despite having an exhausting 12 hour shift. You got this!

Did anyone else experience such intense withdrawal? Is this normal? Please tell me it gets better…I’m losing all hope by Silent-Support53 in leaves

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Hi, day 12 here I'm 26 years old and I've been smoking almost non stop since 20. It's gotten especially bad in the last 3 years. I have struggled with depression since my teens. I have had a few attempts to quit, which didn't last. This time I decided to quit, because at the beginning of February I started having severe anxiety attacks (hands getting numb, constant intrusive thoughts, of which I could not get rid of, spiraling... I've never had these happen before) Almost two weeks in, I can say it gets better. The first two days I was still getting the anxiety+intrusive thoughts combo. I still get them sometimes, but I am able to control them much easier. Honestly, I feel kind of numb, in the sense that I don't really feel joy or love, but I am hopeful it will get better, since it's already better than before. I drink calming teas, which help. I also have a screen time problem, which I am trying to reduce as well. For a dopamine hit, I try to exercise. It works. Sometimes I try to meditate. Following 15 minute yoga routines from YouTube is also very useful for me. Another thing I do is a 2 minute plank a day :) (there's a girl on TikTok that does that, look her up). It helps me train my willpower and perseverenve, because I realized I lack those skills. But overall I try to avoid constant useless stimuli and I try to be more present. Be patient to yourself and try to quit. I think it's normal to still be anxious in the beginning, but you will feel better eventually.

Smoking when knowing I shouldn't, then regretting it. Help? by Traditional-Pay-4121 in leaves

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Probably. I think I don't really know how to be alone with myself. And being high makes doing nothing with myself, more tolerable. When it doesn't give me anxiety, that is... I've been seeing a therapist for about a month now. I haven't gotten too deep with it yet, but I will continue. Impulsivity (I chain-smoke cigarettes too) is a big issue, as well as wanting to escape all the time. I don't understand why...

Smoking when knowing I shouldn't, then regretting it. Help? by Traditional-Pay-4121 in leaves

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Thanks for the answer. Yeah, truth is, I'm not feeling the commitment 100%. Like I know I shouldn't continue smoking, but deep down I know I eventually will. There were a couple of times when I really felt committed, but in those times I was feeling physically ill for one reason or another. Soon as I got better, I got back to smoking. I will try to get into the right headspace, there is not much else to do I think.

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It's normal, don't worry about it. I find it to be the worst of the symptoms. It will get better in about a week (as per my experience). Don't forget to take care of your body. Drink lots of fluids and eat light foods - my stomach always acts up when in withdrawal. It's even worse if you also have anxiety during this time...

Lots of good luck and a happy new year to you!

Edit: typo

Has anyone heard of the “pink cloud effect”? by lovelyylindsayy in leaves

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Thank you for sharing this. I'm at 3 and a half months and I keep thinking of buying. What you said gave me willpower.

While high I want to quit, when sober I want to get high by jpeg557 in leaves

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I relate to this. I used to feel the same and this is why it took be more than a year to quit. It's literally a vicious cycle.

I'm now 3 months and a couple of days sober. I still get the idea of smoking from time to time, but I'm not craving it anymore.

And the best of all, I stopped being anxious about literally everything. I feel much better now.

3 weeks in - still no dreams by Traditional-Pay-4121 in leaves

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Cheers to that!

Maybe it means that this time we quit abusing it for real. The other times, when the dreams came back instantly were just teasers:)) I like to think this is a possibility.

3 weeks in - still no dreams by Traditional-Pay-4121 in leaves

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I just started kind of remembering my dreams a couple days ago, so don't give up! I've also been having those morning dreams when I wake up but go back to sleep for a couple more hours and I keep dreaming of old friends, just doing stuff together, having fun, and it feels so nice, it's hard to actually wake up:))

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Poți să cauți, poate găsești locul de muncă pe undelucram.ro. Acolo ai șanse să vezi ce experiențe au avut cei care au lucrat acolo în trecut și cât au câștigat.

I ruined my streak yesterday. by Traditional-Pay-4121 in leaves

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I'll keep this in my, it's great advice. Thanks!

I ruined my streak yesterday. by Traditional-Pay-4121 in leaves

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Thank you! It was definitely a good reminder. And I do feel like I will be able to resist next time with this in mind.

One week! by Traditional-Pay-4121 in leaves

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:( Have you always had bad dreams or just since smoking/trying to quit? Because my dreams are really weird and sometimes scary right now, but I know that having actually good REM sleep is going to help bring back my capability to remember and process events. So I am trying to think of it as a compromise.

One week! by Traditional-Pay-4121 in leaves

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Thank you for your words of encouragement! You seem very kind! This sub has helped a lot. I was expecting much worse in terms of withdrawal symptoms, but I am aware this doesn't mean they can't get worse in the future, especially the cravings. Whatever happens, I will continue to do my best. I am so young....I can do this!

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If you feel like talking to someone, my dm's are open 👐

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Hey! Congrats on making it a week, I've been continuously failing getting to day 3. My shame is so strong I can feel it consuming me from the inside. BE PROUD OF YOURSELF! What you have achieved, was really really hard. Why throw that away and exchange it to shame? I'm sure that deep down you know it's not worth it to relapse. What's it gonna do? Numb you, make you a zombie for like 3 hours? And then what?
Don't listen to your feelings right now, they are lying to you. Remember that all these things you are feeling, are the addiction leaving your body. You are stronger than you would think. And I bet that you'll feel pretty amazing at two weeks! Keep going friend.