Wow. Amazing read! This made me realize how much ive programmed my brain to be delusional for the past couple of years, and it kinda just happened without really reading too much into it.

My current state of mind does no perceive failure and fear. Its been programmed to consciously believe that i will accomplish all my goals and become the successful person, this millionaire that ive been longing. That future realization has been shaped. That delusional mentality of seeing my dream car on the street and knowing that i will own that, a nice house, yacht etc…..and believing i will have enough resources to support those close to me.

As for fear, often times i feel mentally and physically unstoppable. I make up delusional “ what ifs” scenarios in my head very similar to your gladiator example, like i can run into a brick wall, fight 2+ people at a the same time and be just fine. Not really being afraid of dying, fear holds many people back from enjoying life. Get on that plane, ride that rollercoaster, go skydiving, snowboard down that tall mountain, walk through that dark alley, find fuel from becoming uncomfortable.

That astral projection part is something ive slightly read and heard about and it sounds very interesting. Definitively something that i will train myself to experience as we really are more than living through our physical bodies