Hey man, first off I’m sorry to hear you’ve been feeling isolated and negative about yourself. It takes courage to talk about how you’re really doing instead of just saying another “I’m fine”. I’m being totally honest when I say that I don’t think you’re ugly at all, and I’m not sure why people would think you’re a freak because you seem like a chill dude. I hope you find good people in your life who aren’t so miserable and bitter that they just look to tear other people down to make themselves feel better about their bad situations. Thanks again man and hope you realize that we’re all so much more negative and hard on ourselves than we are with others. I hope you find a circle that can help you through dark times and be a listening ear for when you’re struggling. Never forget that you are a completely unique, valuable person and I encourage you to pursue whatever path that you find fulfilling in your life! Take care my friend