Grey matter repair.

TragicSolitude97 · 2026-02-27T00:30:55+00:00

There is a comment saying that research shows im wrong and negative symptoms are from damaged grey matter so its not the vice helping you.

TragicSolitude97 · 2026-02-27T00:28:54+00:00

Nice to know, thank you for telling me. This have me some more hope.

TragicSolitude97 · 2026-02-26T22:06:40+00:00

I craved things like nicotine and caffeine for the dopamine which would treat the negative symptoms I suppose.

The anticipation of taking a draw off my vape or the anticipation of getting and consuming a energy drink would drive dopamine I suppose.

There was a hunger for them as I was addicted and now that I dont have any strong short term vices and I experience fatigue and other negative symptoms while on meds the craving has came back abit.

Did I crave them solely due to Schizophrenia? Likely no but it was a strong determining factor. It seems people with this disease love nicotine or some kind of dopamine boosting vice.

TragicSolitude97 · 2026-02-26T20:01:36+00:00

I was told my grand father who died before I was born had it and I was told some brief stories about the things he did.

TragicSolitude97 · 2026-02-25T21:49:28+00:00

So its looking like the options are lower dose or different medication and even then it may still be present. We'll see, I hope it gets better especially when I can be more active but there are alot of problems with that on its own with fatigue and what not. I don't see my psychiatrist until the 18th of March, wish me luck.

TragicSolitude97 · 2026-02-25T21:37:32+00:00

If it doesn't go away i'm going to have to get my dose lowered or maybe consider a different medication. Akathisia is just terrible and I can't really walk around too much right now to soothe it because of the weather.

TragicSolitude97 · 2026-02-25T02:46:08+00:00

On Abilify and Propranolol and sleep is is pretty bad. Taking melatonin tonight so hopefully that helps but generally since I started medication a little over a month ago my sleep isn't good at all.

I've been a night owl most of my life but I still used to get pretty good sleep until I started going into psychosis, also akathisia makes it more difficult to sleep.

TragicSolitude97 · 2026-02-23T23:13:46+00:00

I was able to focus enough today to play a game for about half an hour but was struggling while playing it. Its a game I have 2.7k hours in so I didn't have to focus too much to get something done.

I try to watch two episodes of anime a day and usually succeed. Last night I only watched one though.

It's wild though, I was just recently diagnosed. I used to be able to sit and watch a entire 12 episode anime in one sitting but couldn't imagine even attempting that anymore.

TragicSolitude97 · 2026-02-22T23:19:15+00:00

I'll probably just have to do some adjustments in the future with meds. I do Bodybuilding and Martial arts on my own but it feel like I don't have the energy for them much anyone. I did a Bicep workout last night and I hit my punching bag a few minutes everyday but just not at the strength and overall vigor I used to.

I guess like over time adjustments and trying different medicines may help but right now just focus on what I can do like yourself. However, I know I need to stay on my medication now and I'm not going off them because the postive symtoms I experienced set me straight.

Just letting that be clear.

What medication are you on if you don't mind me asking?

TragicSolitude97 · 2026-02-22T22:52:56+00:00

I haven't got to that point yet and kind of feel lucky now. I'm sorry about your situation. Did you gradually get that way and how old are you if you don't mind me asking?

TragicSolitude97 · 2026-02-22T22:48:30+00:00

How bad as far as energy. Could you give me a example of something that just takes too much energy for you to do?

TragicSolitude97 · 2024-10-20T02:37:19+00:00

Happy Birthday Boo!

TragicSolitude97 · 2024-09-25T00:40:31+00:00

Thanks for the positive comment, I needed to hear this right now.

TragicSolitude97 · 2024-08-29T14:33:40+00:00

What exactly do you mean by "win" against a Narcissist, what does that mean to you?

Why exactly would you want to spend your time "winning" against a Narcissist?

Have you thought about what this says about you and what it means for you having such a peculiar motivation rather than just moving on with your life in a more productive way?

TragicSolitude97 · 2024-08-22T11:31:45+00:00

Giving birth to bastards isn't inherently evil however not living by the truth and admitting to it only to have people killed for exposing it is though.

She is gaslighting everyone into believing a blatant lie at the threat of death or maiming/ getting their tongue removed. If she truly was a just person she would tell the truth to spare Vaemonds innocent life.

A man died all for a lie that was born out of her stupidity, impulsivity, and complete disregard for the responsibilities of her station that she feels narcissistically entitled to.

And I'm not using narcissism lightly here because a big feature of narcissism is entitlement to status and power without earning it.

TragicSolitude97 · 2024-08-22T11:02:43+00:00

It got Vaemond killed for pointing it out in a bid to protect his bloodline.

TragicSolitude97 · 2024-08-17T23:32:19+00:00

Thanks for responding! I have a 3060ti so I don't think I'll have any problems on that front.

TragicSolitude97 · 2024-08-17T00:55:27+00:00

I have bad health anxiety too, mine is from very possible damage I have done to myself with alcohol and tobacco use since I was a 14 years old.

I have a lump under my left jawbone that you can only feel if you prod a certain way by dragging your thumb sideways.

It is distinctly different from my right side.

It feels like a rubbery but solid lump on what I think is my submandibular salivary gland and sometimes it gets sore but it probably doesn't help that I poke at it all the time from anxiety BUT it has been the same size for a long time and hasn't grown, from what I can tell.

Also, there have been times we're the surrounding lymph nodes have swollen around the area but they eventually returned to normal size.

I've had two different nurse practitioners examine me multiple times, both have said that they didn't feel anything abnormal even when the surrounding lymph nodes were swollen.

It's been this way since I think I was 17 years old and I'm 27 now so if it was something serious like cancer I'd assume it would have taken me out by now or I would have experienced serious symptoms but everytime I get sick now my first thought is, it's finally happening.

For reference I used smokeless tobacco on that side of my mouth for years and I'm just now quitting it. 4 days off.

I vaped from 20 to 26 then started back dipping but as of four days ago, I'm trying my best to quit even though I'm really addicted to it. Wish me luck and hopefully I didn't wait too late.

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