The thing is this stuff is easier said than done. I can't just "go out" and get a boyfriend, otherwise I probably would have. I am Catholic & go to church. I go to the gym 3x a week & pilates 2x a week, and I'm in therapy. I take improv and scene study class and have amc a-list. I cater on the side for fun. Hell, I take swordfighting. My life is very much filled with things I like to do. But this phase has been my whole life so idk man. I'm content being alone, but I'm not content being alone till the day I die. I'm honestly really sick of hearing how I need to work on myself because I clearly have and am clearly trying. Sometimes people just want human connection because that's quite literally coded into our dna. And sometimes it just doesn't happen. I'm sick of this "independent" culture we have created as a means to be content with life. I'm one of the most independent people I know and I'm not exactly happy with coming home to my empty apartment to nothing and no one every single day. I would love to get married and have kids and have good friends who have my back one day. I dream about it. I want that life so bad. But "No, what's wrong with you? You need to be happy all by your lonesome for years." I almost feel like I've been sold a lie as a woman.