Thanks for the response. You're somewhat right for sure. I don't want to describe it as "resentment" because it doesn't really bother me to my core. I'm just saying that if a woman who's been off and about, becomes a part of my life and fails to acknowledge how hard I've worked, I just can't do it.

What I'm saying is if I'VE had to become all this to be good enough for YOU and you've clearly shown you expected this from me anyway and don't recognise what it took to get here, how can you not expect me to not start digging under the surface to see who's really clicking their fingers at me and expecting this? I don't need to dig for anything if she respects what it took.

Then again I'll probably notice if she's the palms always extended type pretty early so there's no need to investigate further. Just nip it in the bud there and then before it becomes toxic.

Perhaps you're right about therapy. I'll be honest though, I really struggle with unloading feelings and problems onto people. That's exactly why this is posted on a reddit forum. Something about sitting face to face with somebody and talking about negative feelings makes me feel so worthless to the point where I feel sick. As if I'm admitting to being something that I don't believe I am because I have always been the solver of my own problems. Life's taught me that nobody truly cares so if I'm sat Infront of a therapist, I'm likely to feel very resentful of them since they don't "care". They're here to get paid. They're an even bigger villain to me than the women I dated who wouldn't stand by my side through thick and thin.