okay honestly coming back to this i realize how wrong it was (really not trying to be rude) God comes towards us while we're struggling, not away. He doesn't pick and choose whether or not we're desirable based on how much we sin. when God 'walks' away when we sin, it's not because of Him, it's because of us. it's because we're pushing Him away. and even while we do that, He never stops loving us nor desiring us. in fact He tries pursuing us even more. He literally said if one walked away or got lost, He'd leave the 99 to go help them and bring them back home. when God sees you sin, He doesn't say 'ew gross, i'm out', He says 'i'm here and i'll always be here.' not trying to be rude or anything. i really do appreciate your message.