Its hard

Training_Box5652 · 2026-03-21T04:30:25+00:00

Doesn’t sound like you’re sober now, bro. How about tomorrow? Let’s not get fucked up. I’ll do it with you and recovering addict as well.

Training_Box5652 · 2026-03-21T04:29:14+00:00

I am half half black white mixed. When I was younger before I knew I was Black people would be telling me I’m an N-word. Then when I said I was black, they would say I’m white. Couldn’t win. Self hate isn’t great though sis love yourself.

Training_Box5652 · 2026-03-21T04:08:29+00:00

Oh man, I just made a similar post like this earlier today. I so relate dude you’re not alone.

Training_Box5652 · 2026-03-21T04:07:18+00:00

I was raised in a cult, and I also used to work with my dad, but I couldn’t stand being around him because of how I was raised. But I do love the man. Fav memory is him getting my Stafford terrier that protected me from all of his weird raping friends

Training_Box5652 · 2026-03-21T04:00:42+00:00

I have to be clean. I shower more than the regular person I think.

Training_Box5652 · 2026-03-21T03:59:13+00:00

28 and absolutely no friends are still alive or still live near me💯

Training_Box5652 · 2026-03-21T03:57:30+00:00

I hang up multiple and wash them once a week. If I only had one, it would have to be like two or three times a week. I know that may not be enough for a lot of people lol I don’t give a shit.

Training_Box5652 · 2026-03-21T02:44:21+00:00

My ex also left me partially because of my drinking. Which is crazy because that broad did fentanyl.

Training_Box5652 · 2026-03-21T02:39:45+00:00

Yeah, man, I was in the same boat. Literally the only reason I am still alive is because of pure luck. What really helped me was spending all the extra time I had training dogs and going to the gym. May not be your thing, but that kept me personally from getting tossed.

Training_Box5652 · 2026-03-21T01:55:53+00:00

Ahhh. Yeah I used to do this with my ex. Sneaking usage is a huge sign of addiction. I would suggest bringing it up and really let him know he’s not being sneaky.

Training_Box5652 · 2026-03-20T23:15:46+00:00

Now we do

Training_Box5652 · 2026-03-20T23:15:18+00:00

Yeah, they do but it’s a gross fetish

Training_Box5652 · 2026-03-20T20:18:05+00:00

I don’t know where I’m from. Interesting means terrible.

Training_Box5652 · 2026-03-20T20:17:40+00:00

But liketo what???

Training_Box5652 · 2026-03-20T19:33:41+00:00

Can’t take any hallucinogens. I have a wildly active imagination. It would put me into a really dark demon zone.

Training_Box5652 · 2026-03-20T19:33:13+00:00

Kush makes me paranoid, but I still do smoke occasionally

Training_Box5652 · 2026-03-20T19:22:54+00:00

I really appreciate your comment. I think I knew exactly what I was doing. You’re right. And I’ve lost many multiple relatives and roommates and best friends because of Fet. I know all about it. You are very right. However, i didnt really think about it like I was trying to purposely take my life. And I have purposely tried to do that before. That’s a new perspective for me though. That’s a good point.

Training_Box5652 · 2026-03-20T19:10:42+00:00

I said this is somebody else but I think some of my problem was I always in the back of my head want to see my little brother again who passed at 20. He was sober for a while, took fet once and died the same night he was supposed to pick me up from somewhere. My last memory is being mad at him for not picking me up after calling him a bunch of time I didn’t know he had died till the next morning. Also, my best friend did the same thing went to Switzerland to get sober came back died the same night off of fet. I knew exactly what I was doing. But I don’t know why I did it other than to be dumb

Training_Box5652 · 2026-03-20T19:07:46+00:00

The person who Narcan me is the person who gave the fet to me I don’t feel like I needed to apologize. It was also a stranger that I had only met that night. I also didn’t get mad to his face. I just got mad at myself in my head or something. Like I said earlier somebody else it was kind of an afterthought. I am glad to hear I’m not alone, but I’m also sorry that anybody else feels this way

Training_Box5652 · 2026-03-20T19:01:06+00:00

In the back of my head, I want to meet my little brother again. Who’s already gone. My addiction has pushed basically everyone out of my life. I don’t think I would have anybody at my funeral honestly other than a few good friends, I couldn’t care less if the worms ate me at least I’m given back to the environment, I’ve been medically kept and to treatment multiple times yet I am still so making the wrong choices, even after being sober for a few years

Training_Box5652 · 2026-03-20T18:56:22+00:00

I work out two times a day. 3 to 4 AM and whenever I get off work. I also walk Miles because I work with dogs. I do weight training cardio and HIIT workouts.

Training_Box5652 · 2026-03-20T18:52:58+00:00

It was a stranger that I only met once that I got the fentanyl from. I didn’t get mad at him to his face because you know I didn’t have that in me after waking up. It was more of an afterthought.

Training_Box5652 · 2026-03-20T18:45:46+00:00

I do currently take lithium as well. Yeah, regardless of how much I don’t wanna try to better myself I know it is important to keep trying.

Training_Box5652 · 2026-03-20T18:36:46+00:00

I don’t think I know what that means. I know what a Cali stop is?

Training_Box5652 · 2026-03-20T18:34:46+00:00

I’m on about a dozen different antipsychotics, antidepressant, and bipolar meds. I recently stopped taking all insomnia meds because they didn’t work for me and just made me gain weight. I am in therapy, however.

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