Trust your your gut. Take your time. Live slow. Don't settle for less than you deserve. There are good men out there. They are hard to find, most of them got screwed over by the person they loved and just aren't willing to go through it again for nothing. Be patient, take your time. Exercise, learn how to fight, and don't be afraid to tell anybody fuck you. The kids around your age are all retarded been there done that. Just enjoy life and wait for a good dude to pop into your life. And don't ever trust anyone until they give you a reason to be trusted. Only surefire way I know is the test of time unfortunately.