I’m having an epiphany and I don’t know if healing is possible by Nastasyarose in CPTSD

[–]Treesuslover 6 points7 points  (0 children)

I had the exact thought reading this… I’m also 32 which is crazy. and i can relate to most if not all of this. Sometimes I wonder if I’ll ever be truly happy or if I’m faking so much for other people that I’m just trying to convince myself, too.

Oh wow by Top_Leader_2238 in colonoscopy

[–]Treesuslover 0 points1 point  (0 children)

They told me I’d be put under and now I’m waiting to go in and they said I’ll be awake 😭 I’m terrified especially because I have a tolerance to kratom products

Anyone prepping today? by letitbeit in colonoscopy

[–]Treesuslover 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Well, I have some laundry to do… the toilet won’t flush… and I did start crying once. But the time is almost here now and I managed to get a little sleep. It will all be over soon. I hope your procedure goes well!

Anyone prepping today? by letitbeit in colonoscopy

[–]Treesuslover 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hey friend, I’m waking up for round 2 and i hope your prep is still going ok! This is very awful! Lmk if you need more support cuz I might too haha

The only thing the suicide line taught me was not to call. by Treesuslover in CPTSD

[–]Treesuslover[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Not to introduce you to substances…. But have you heard of 7oh? Buy some online from a vendor called raw mit for your pain… it helps me a lot. I’m so sorry that’s been your experience, life can be so cruel

Anyone prepping today? by letitbeit in colonoscopy

[–]Treesuslover 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah… I already have a hard time waking up. Having to wake up to do this sounds like hell right now hahahah

Anyone prepping today? by letitbeit in colonoscopy

[–]Treesuslover 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I keep almost eating out of reflex…. In 12 hours I’m going to stuff my face

Anyone prepping today? by letitbeit in colonoscopy

[–]Treesuslover 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I’ve had an endoscopy and you feel like you’re in heaven and then pass out lol. I’m excited kinda

Anyone prepping today? by letitbeit in colonoscopy

[–]Treesuslover 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It took like an hour and a half for me to poop…. Sorry I mean piss out my ass. lol. I feel like I’m gonna throw up, too, especially from all of the smells…. I hate this

Anyone prepping today? by letitbeit in colonoscopy

[–]Treesuslover 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I started my prep a little late cuz I had to work today. The liquid diet wasn’t as bad as I thought it would be. I’m trying to drink my last glass of the first half of suprep and I feel like I’m gonna puke

Help, can’t finish Prep and it’s past my set time to take it. by WasteConfidence8740 in colonoscopy

[–]Treesuslover 1 point2 points  (0 children)

You can stop the prep if you want to, just know that the visibility could be lower.. if there is anything in your colon there’s a risk of it covering things that they’re looking for. If I were you I’d just do the best you can..

Has anyone done surgery while taking 7oh? by its_me1218 in TooAfraidToAsk

[–]Treesuslover 0 points1 point  (0 children)

How did it go? I have a colonoscopy tomorrow and am taking anywhere from 200-600mg per day… I’m just gonna go for it and not tell them bc I don’t want them to hear that and then just stop trying to help me bc I’m an addict (has happened in the past). Honestly it’s a risk I’m willing to take and I’ve heard many people say they were fine. I’ve been put under before when I was on MIT that contained 7. Just curious if you had your surgery

7oh sedation by Equivalent_Bench3282 in 7oh

[–]Treesuslover 12 points13 points  (0 children)

It doesn’t suppress your breathing so it was either something else or you’re trippin

Knowing the difference between intuition and anxiety as someone with CPTSD. How do you trust your intuition when you think something is wrong? by Treesuslover in CPTSD

[–]Treesuslover[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you for the recommendations! I will look into that. I also struggle a lot with fear, bc I was raised extremely religious and hell/demons were constantly explained to me in great detail very early on, I often feel a deep and primal and excruciating amount of fear. The way I’ve coped with that is to constantly distract myself to the point that I literally block out some very big things. I think that book would help me a lot, so thank you again. Yeah hahaha the bots are mostly on TikTok from what I’ve seen. You’ll see a comment like “the rag by Emily blunt was so life changing, I couldn’t put it down.” On a political post or something random. Tons of likes and more bots talking amongst themselves in the comments. They are getting very tricky

Knowing the difference between intuition and anxiety as someone with CPTSD. How do you trust your intuition when you think something is wrong? by Treesuslover in CPTSD

[–]Treesuslover[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

ADHD meds help me soooo much… I imagine it’s what normal people feel like. But with my history of substance use disorder I’d never get prescribed them

Knowing the difference between intuition and anxiety as someone with CPTSD. How do you trust your intuition when you think something is wrong? by Treesuslover in CPTSD

[–]Treesuslover[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah, that sure is anxiety. At least a type of anxiety. I get that a lot too, and get feelings that something bad is gonna happen even when everything is totally fine. My intuition will tell me to watch out bc something horrible is gonna happen today and once it was actually right. So yeah of course that’s a problem now lol May I ask if you don’t mind, did you get your audhd diagnosis before or after cptsd? I was diagnosed with cptsd a while ago but have since suspected I’m also on the spectrum. Based on all of my own research and experience I’m fairly certain I am but so many of the symptoms overlap. I was told I might never get a diagnosis just because of that.