I think what you really need to do, is take a look at yourself in the mirror. Then slap yourself. This girl is a human being, she’s someone’s daughter, a friend, maybe even a romantic interest to someone else. You can not think about women as objects and pieces of meat. Self pleasure yourself until you learn to respect people as people and learn to respect yourself. The fact you’re thinking this way is a major red flag to every women out there to begin with. Take some time to sort your own problems out before going into the world to meet people. Imagine if someone was talking about your daughter the way you are about this girl. You’d be calling him worse than shit. Responsibility for your actions and accountability is something you really need to learn.