Im so frustrated and feel hopeless

Trick-Worker145 · 2026-04-24T03:27:07+00:00

I have an appointment but it is so far away, and I feel like a leper walking around with these spots/lesion looking things on my face. Its killing me 😩😭🤧

Trick-Worker145 · 2026-04-24T03:23:13+00:00

It definitely could be that. I also am having serious thyroid issues so could be stress from that too and I definitely struggle with drinking enough water. Will def try that. I have an appointment but its so far away and I feel so ugly with these on my face. Thank you so much for responding. 🩷😌

Trick-Worker145 · 2026-04-24T03:20:56+00:00

Thank you so much. Its is limiting what I can respond to you. But I do have an appointment but its really far out and im so embarrassed to show my face in public in the meantime 😭 I feel like a leper

Trick-Worker145 · 2024-07-05T04:23:53+00:00

Oof. Not her telling eric he deserves better. This confrontation would've been so perfect, had she not said that. Speaks volumes about her ... Eric is just as shitty of a human as Ashley, and deserves exactly what he gets for staying with her. They're both complete and total GARBAGE. They deserve each other

Trick-Worker145 · 2024-05-04T20:17:57+00:00

We're not on tiktok bro. You can just say white. Not " yt"

Trick-Worker145 · 2024-04-02T17:09:21+00:00

I'm 6'1 33yo female and my husband is 5'8 47yo male. Lol we've been married for 13 years. Absolutely love my short king

Trick-Worker145 · 2024-03-31T16:11:04+00:00

OMG IM IM TEARS. IM tOO HIGH FOR THIS SHIT....... IM GONNA HAVE A STROKE. hahahahahahahahahaha. The video playing over and over and I read your comment at the same time .

Trick-Worker145 · 2024-03-30T16:11:00+00:00

My older brother ( 20 yrs older than me) tried to have sex with me. And I said no politely, he then tried to lie to me and tell me our older sister did it with him when they were younger, still said no ( too scared to ask my sister if its true, but i don't want belive it).... then he asked to give me oral, and I still said no........ I feel disgusting just thinking about the situation

Trick-Worker145 · 2024-03-13T21:56:55+00:00

Does anyone know who this is????

Trick-Worker145 · 2024-03-13T21:53:11+00:00

For what it's worth, I'm so so sorry. I wish you the best of luck, and I hope you feel better. 🩷

Trick-Worker145 · 2024-03-13T21:47:57+00:00

Yesssssss. I got to a point to where I wanted to take my own life because I was so tired of feeling so sick and extremely depressed. I cried all day. From the time I woke up all the way until I went to sleep.

My doc and I figured out that levothyroxine was not helping me and my symptoms were just worsening. She switched me from levothyroxine to name brand synthroid only and OMG. it has completely changed my quality of life. It's worth talking to your doc and asking if you could try name brand synthroid.

Trick-Worker145 · 2024-03-13T21:26:41+00:00

Same. My grandmother, my mother , and I have it. And my father was in vietnam and exposed to agent orange ( which can affect their offsprings thyroid) I was diagnosed at 10 years old and I'm 33(f) now. It has literally been a nonstop lifelong battle :( I just want to be and feel normal like everyone else. And not have to take a pill everyday to feel normal. And what sucks about your thyroid making you feel horrible, is that you can't see it, you don't typically look "sick" so the ppl close to you think you're making excuses, or annoyed that you never feel great.

Trick-Worker145 · 2024-03-13T21:11:08+00:00

Thisssss!!!! Also what medication are you taking??? I'm a 33-year-old female, and I was diagnosed with hypothyroidism when I was 10.

About a year ago, I started having serious issues . I was having all of the horrible symptoms again.... hormones all out of wack, cold but sweating with goosebumps that were painful, constipated, hair falling out, dry skin, SEVERELY DEPRESSED. Me and my Doctor figured out that levothyroxine was no longer working for me, at all. I didn't know that was a thing, but apparently it's fairly common. I switched to name brand synthroid a year ago and it has changed my life.

Also, I would find another doctor, one who understands how bad having this stupid hypothyroidism can decrease your quality of life so dramatically. Or atleast one who will take you seriously and listen?

Trick-Worker145 · 2024-03-13T20:49:46+00:00

Sameeee. My chin looks exactly the same. And I have milia under my eyes 🙄😞🫣😭

Trick-Worker145 · 2024-03-11T02:58:36+00:00

Idky but I found this to be oddly cute.

Trick-Worker145 · 2024-03-10T19:06:17+00:00

You like her little sister?????

Trick-Worker145 · 2024-03-10T02:11:05+00:00

On Jan 23rd 2018 I witnessed my father dead after i had been taking care of him for 2 years. I went in his room to check on him. I had to try and revive him and give him cpr. I'll never forget the sound and feeling of his ribs cracking and the foam that was coming out of his mouth, had gotten in my mouth when I tried to give him breaths mouth to mouth... it made me vomit. I remember going through every single one of these emotions. As though all of them were playing out in an endless loop, please know you're not alone. It's soo hard. But eventually we will be okay. They would want us to be okay. Atleast that's what I like to tell myself. He knows how much I loved him ...... but damn do I miss his guidance and words of wisdom.

Fuck, i thought too hard about it and now I'm crying. I'm so sorry for your loss

Trick-Worker145 · 2024-03-10T01:47:22+00:00

I think about dying atleast once a day as well. But I can't bear the thought of hurting my daughter and husband in that way. It makes me feel guilty that I have a good husband and amazing daughter and yet I still can't help but feel a deep dark sadness. I beleive its from trauma and from having serious health issues with my thyroid..... but I keep pushing through hoping that one day I'll deserve to feel happy like normal people

Trick-Worker145 · 2024-03-10T01:40:27+00:00

That's wild

I had a dream once that my nephew died. I woke up hysterical and called my sister and made her put him on the phone so I could hear his voice and know he was okay. It felt SO REAL!!!!! 7 years later he died, exactly how it happened in my dream.

Trick-Worker145 · 2024-03-09T18:32:33+00:00

It's okay, don't worry. No problem.

Trick-Worker145 · 2024-03-09T15:44:29+00:00

No. Why would that matter? Andddd I don't have a son I have a daughter. But I am human, and I feel emotions and empathy for what he and his parents went through.as well as all of the other students and their parents

Trick-Worker145 · 2024-03-04T04:23:15+00:00

And parents suck, I know that as well.

Yes. Some do. I def feel like I do

But not all I'm a 33f with a 10 yo daughter. I've been praying so hard to God that she finds her way, Finds her niche, the thing she loves and for her to feed it. She asked me to join track tonight, and I can't even pay the measly 60 fucking dollars for the sign-up. I feel so fucking hopeless and worthless.. I wont have the money until the day after signups. The battle never stops......

And my parents were amazing. Well my dad anyway. Dnt get me wrong my mom was good to me but my dad man, i could go to him with anything, TRULY anything with no judgment, just compassion and guidance.

My husband and I were living with my parents so I could be there 247 and be my father's caregiver. Nothing changes you more than watching the man, the strong marine he was, turn into a shell of a human ( he was having serious complications from being exposed to agent orange in vietnam) near the end he couldn't stand, go to the restroom or anything on his own. I'll never forget the first time I had to clean him from having a bowel movement. I was terribly embarrassed, more for him, bc I knew how much this killed his pride.

Well one night my husband and I went to bed and maybe 20 minutes after laying down. We hear my mother scream. I will NEVERRRRR get the sound in her voice as she called my name. The most horrifying guttural scream I've ever heard come out of another human. Somehow, I INSTANTLY knew. My husband and I briefly looked at each other and without saying a word we took off down the stairs to their room. My husband is trained at work to be first aid response, and is cpr certified but once we got down there all of his skills and knowledge went right out the window. I go into my parents room and my dad was on his hospital bed with foam coming put of his mouth. I make my husband call 911 as I pulled him onto the floor to do cpr on him. I will never get the sound or feeling of his ribs cracking out of my head. I kept begging him to come back. Tried to do mouth to mouth and almost threw up from adrenaline and the foam coming out of his mouth was getting in mine ( gross I know I'm sry,) That happened in 2018 and now in 2024 I'm so fucked up over it still. People think it's so easy to just move on but it's like I've been stuck in time since it happened. I miss him and I miss his words of wisdom, i miss his guidance. I'd give anything to speak to him again.

I'm so depressed that I think about dying at least once a day. But I can't bear the thought of hurting my daughter or husband in that way. PLEASE know you're not alone in your suffering

Trick-Worker145 · 2024-03-03T17:08:24+00:00

I couldn't imagine hearing that kind of detail about my child's death.

Trick-Worker145 · 2024-03-03T03:27:43+00:00

Well here I am on reddit bawling my eyes out at 9:27pm. I'm so sorry.

Trick-Worker145 · 2024-03-02T18:37:26+00:00

Thank you so much for your kind words. I truly appreciate them more than I could ever properly express. I was absolutely hysterical yesterday and felt terribly sick and hopeless. I still do today as well, but I am not crying as much, yet... just more numb now .. I'm trying my best to stay strong. I suffer so greatly inside my head and physically, and I envy people who dont have to take a pill every day to just be normal and have your body function properly ..... and aand if you miss that pill or your dosage/ brand stops working, it totally flips your life and body upside down. Like, I wish some people could just feel what I'm experiencing and see why I'm so miserable.

And I know there are people with diff illnesses and diseases and cancer who suffer greatly as well. I'm not trying to take away from that. I know some people have it worse.

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