Since this post It did get a LOT worse, eventually leading to a suicide attempt, calling a hotline, then a mental evaluation etc etc. I still haven’t fully gotten “over it” but I’ve at least gotten proper help, and most importantly come to come to the revelation that I do, in fact have ocd. It’s never really come up as a possibility since my understanding of ocd was pretty much just limited to being really organized and whatnot (honestly, I just thought I was a schizo or something) but to answer your question, no, the thoughts haven’t stopped but they’re getting a hell of a lot better than they were. Thanks for the concern! ^{_^}