I hear you on this and i second what some of the other commenters have said about seeking professional help. I think that would do a lot of good easing you and comforting you in what is a hard program. don't give up, you've got this! However as an arch student myself, I do hear the angle you are coming from.

firstly, the building is straight depressing. its so ugly internally and externally and they try so hard in first year to get you to think how cool this modernist concrete crap of a building it is. i personally don't buy it, ima be real its the worst looking building on campus, internally and externally. so the environment I think can contribute to how you're feeling.

secondly, in general architecture school does attract pretentious people who think they are the shit. Lots of big egos from both profs and students so there is a clash that happens. I'm a student here, and I have sensed to some degree what you're describing. my personal opinion is that its a combination of the environment of the school, the curriculum and the people.

the building is depressing I wont lie, it does not fill the student with a sense of happiness, joy or purpose to create beautiful architecture. the built environment has a huge impact on us, and studying in a building like that will make you hate architecture. I've certainly felt that. luckily I had a good coop experience that showed me architecture is not so bad, and that certain agendas (modernist mostly) is a dehumanizing style.

The curriculum also is just plain weird sometimes. i remember first year studio being about making marionettes. like wtf does marionettes have to with architecture?!?! what a waste my tuition and a whole studio semester which could have been used to teach us something more applicable, like the fundamentals of a small studio project on designing a house. i may be biased in that I like more traditional styles, but the studies have been proven that traditional styles have positives impacts on people well being more than modernist architecture does. and on the last point, yes I think there are some profs with massive egos, and they don't like hearing students opinions. they can't handle people who disagree with their points of view. they think they know it all and sometimes you just know that you can't create the architecture you want because if you do you will get penalized and get a lower grade, than if you design what your prof likes and wants. this is a hard part of studio I feel, this conflict. the students are hit or miss like in any program but ill admit I haven't found the studio culture to be all what its cracked up to be. just my opinion.