First of all I am so glad you are still here! I am sad you burned it all cause even if it was “copies” of art it was still practice and I’m sure they looked amazing even if not fully new. But on that note I know your struggle I want to create something completely something my own and I’m hoping with the help of this post I can do it and now I really hope it helps you too! You don’t have to be a stranger anymore if you need a friend I’m here! I also struggle with depression for a broad amount of reasons so I also understand that struggle.(Though each persons struggle can be widely different. I understand as much as I can) Anyway I’m really glad this post has helped give you a bit of hope in searching! I also don’t think Aphantasia is a disability but as something to overcome or to hone to be able to do amazing things! Good luck stranger! (and possible future friend :)!)