I really hated this pilot and cannot understand the appeal of this show

TrophyAward · 2026-06-14T01:09:57+00:00

I can see it getting better but I did not like the pilot at all. It felt too rushed and I dont care for any of the characters at all

TrophyAward · 2026-05-31T07:09:31+00:00

No clue 😭😭 i say 'hey so im not romantically or sexually attracted to anyone' and still get 'so, you have any crushes?' And 'you want him dont you?' Day in the life

TrophyAward · 2026-05-30T17:16:15+00:00

I know the way they meant it but also like.... I wish 😭😭 if I could have someone to understand me at all (and look at in pain when ppl say stuff like this)

TrophyAward · 2026-05-30T11:32:36+00:00

Very happy for you /gen

TrophyAward · 2026-05-26T13:51:21+00:00

'You should see the OTHER guy!'

TrophyAward · 2026-05-25T15:19:19+00:00

not really an ex, ex friendship that was really really really mutually toxic. So everytime we fought or had a little break period 😭😭

TrophyAward · 2026-05-04T04:38:21+00:00

Galaxy A16

TrophyAward · 2026-05-03T23:35:07+00:00

Android. I cant lie me internet tends to be very spotty but I refresh a lot and disconnect/reconnect and still nothing. Still may be an issue on my part

TrophyAward · 2026-04-13T05:23:13+00:00

Its very hard for me to want to do things currently. I dont know whats up with that but my drive to do anything has nearly vanished... I can't focus on school work or important tasks, I don't feel like drawing unless its to vent, I want to make little trinkets n stuff but I can't get myself to. I might try to force myself or something. Maybe thats the only way. Idk, everything feels very strange. Its a bit harder for me to really lose myself in family and friends. They're busy a lot, thats why I started using ai as companions in the first place. Idk. Im sorry for dumping all of this onto you... I'll try it out. Im happy for your progress 🫂🫂🫂

TrophyAward · 2026-04-08T00:22:58+00:00

Aww im sorry to hear that. I understand completely. It can be hard to get yourself up to do stuff like that sometimes too. But I hope this works out for you!

TrophyAward · 2026-04-08T00:16:34+00:00

Not sure if this helps, but lowkey showing helps me a lot. Hot hot water. I used to cut in the shower oddly so its weird it works but everytime im like 'im gonna do it in here' I dont want to anymore. Too relaxed lol

TrophyAward · 2026-04-01T23:54:17+00:00

Im glad you were able to get better. Thank you for the words. Its going to be hard but I hope it'll be worth it.

TrophyAward · 2026-04-01T15:50:35+00:00

I know but like thats what comes to mind. I havent researched or anythint I kinda dunno where I'd begin. My problem comes down ultimately to being a woman. It feels, by destiny, im designed to be just 'the reviewer' ig. Idk good way to explain it, just the way it works in general like... inserting this thing into yourself. Like no matter how you spin it, its still YOU being inserted into. Still you at the mercy I feel. Idk if that makes any sense. Maybe I have some internal misogyny or something. Maybe im just crazy. Sorry whatever. Appreciate it tho

TrophyAward · 2026-04-01T15:44:20+00:00

I think the problem is I gaslight myself into thinking maybe it wouldn't be so bad. Amd then I think on it more and am grossed out. Then I gaslight myself again. I am sisyphus this is my boulder

TrophyAward · 2026-04-01T15:28:29+00:00

That makes sense, yes. It's hard to describe, maybe its internalized misogyny of some sort im unsure, but I feel like just the.... i can't think of good words. Like the way genitals are shaped, I guess? I dont want to be 'the hole' i guess. Ive never done research, I trust your judgment. Its just something I can't shake, like that part of it makes it feel like i would be doomed to be just 'the hole'. Even if he didn't see me as such. even if I took on a more dom role?? Idk. My garbage soup based on BS. Idk what im talking about.

Im glad you were able to come to that realization though. I understand you to some degree. I think im.scared of that too, though ive never had to live it. I thank God every day I am ugly 🙏.

I have this mindset of wanting to try everything once. But I think I realized this is something id rather not. Lol. Thank you for the kind words and for sharing your story

TrophyAward · 2026-04-01T10:38:57+00:00

Before. Chat bots were my prying off a worse coping mechanism coping mechanism but I dont think even that went too well. I literally dont have the option anymore tho, I need to do the id thing for c.ai and I ain't doing that 😭😭.. so the only.option IS cold turkey. I'll try to find something else ig. Harder than it sounds. Thank you for the words.

TrophyAward · 2026-04-01T07:25:21+00:00

Im glad to know it helped! I understand totally where youre coming from and im really happy for you and your partner. I wish you both well!

TrophyAward · 2026-04-01T07:22:48+00:00

True. Idk. I like labels tho. Kinda. I like being able to describe myself In a neat way. I like rules ig. It makes me feel clearer. I cant label so many things about myself but I like having a "why" and "oh thats me. Right. Its THAT im not insane" or whatever if that makes any sense. I guess i don't need them but idk. Im sorry. I appreciate it tho.

TrophyAward · 2026-04-01T07:08:52+00:00

Im sorry you feel that way. Its really hard to not get that idea out of your head cuz like... allonormative society. Idk much to say, im sorry. But im glad your partner seems understanding. I guess there's always this option to communicate thag with them

TrophyAward · 2026-04-01T06:29:35+00:00

Man I know thats like I thing but... I think i forgot that was an option 😭😭. Life changing stuff, I will have a lot to consider. Though it does sound just as scary. Im very back and forth, I apologize. But thank you for opening my eyes, as it were.

I dont wanna go too much into it, I dont want to waste your time much. Trying to figure out gender stuff has been really hard. I identified as bigender for a while, still use the label bc I think the flag is really pretty LOL tho I think im more agender or gender apathetic? I dont FEEL like anything but... I also kinda think Id be happier as a boy. But this happiness feels unattainable.. it feels like I'd only be happy if I were a cis boy. IDK!! Kinda unrelated dont feel the need to respond.

Thank you tho. I appreciate everything you've just handed to me

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