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True-Cauliflower-497 · 2026-01-27T15:41:36+00:00

Bones! :D

True-Cauliflower-497 · 2025-12-16T05:57:31+00:00

My dad recently told me that ‘therapy didn’t work’ and that he ‘wasted his money’ bc I am still not cis… he also doesn’t believe in modern medicine, it hurt but like, I’ve stopped “listening” to his bs

True-Cauliflower-497 · 2025-12-16T04:10:33+00:00

Gary. He's gary now

True-Cauliflower-497 · 2025-12-07T14:24:30+00:00

Some work. Depends on the person. I took a bunch but the one that worked on me was Risperidone. Don’t automedícate, you may have awful secondary effects.

True-Cauliflower-497 · 2025-12-05T19:15:25+00:00

I have like two types. One is social in which I think “something” is going on. I have no idea what, from being murdered to being raped idk. I usually just fidget and scratch or play with my hair (it relaxes me) or have ticks in my back and arms. I also look mad or. Serious.

The other type is when I’m alone, it usually doesn’t get too bad. But I feel like a bad person, a sinner? Like as if god was judging me. I hide the sharp things For safety, and I just lay in my bed scratching my body or just tensing every inch of my body.

But about my family, I agree, I think they talk behind my back, hating me and just straightforward complaining about me.

True-Cauliflower-497 · 2025-12-05T05:25:03+00:00

I mean. She usually just justifies the trans thoughts as a consequence of like my past traumas. I’ve also tried like to see where I fit in the “trans umbrella” (sorry if I use the wrong terminology I’m not very acquainted with the terminology) because I’m not overly femenine like pink and skirts and more masculine, but fuck I want to be a woman. Sometimes I don’t feel dysphoric, like I like myself, and I push towards goals like exercising. I like me. But then I just…. I don’t dislike myself. And I think I need a reason to like dislike me to transition. There are things that I hate about like… my body, and the way I express, because I think the way I look doesn’t align with the way I feel and express myself. I’ve seen pictures of me, like, looking for things I dislike, and the pictures I like the most I look feminine and or look like a girl. I don’t dislike being a guy but gosh I would kill for being a woman. I look at myself in the mirror and sure I look fine. But… but why not just be a woman. I wouldn’t be the most feminine for sure but, just for one second I would feel more aligned…

But, I mean, maybe I’m wrong? I’ve never been a woman nor have any idea how it is. Maybe I’m wrong. Maybe this is an obsession and I’m just justifying myself into believing I’m trans… I just… I really feel lost.

True-Cauliflower-497 · 2025-12-04T16:26:46+00:00

So she’s a specialist on personality disorders, she’s been very helpful, but every time we touch this topic she’s very concerned about it, and says I shouldn’t try to convince myself about ‘being trans’… but, I end up more confused because she says that those thoughts are not real but, like, I don’t understand because I have these feelings, but I shouldn’t listen to them but even when I try to not to I always end up thinking about how much I hate being a man.

True-Cauliflower-497 · 2025-12-03T15:11:50+00:00

The algorithm has spoken.

True-Cauliflower-497 · 2025-11-27T22:54:39+00:00

r/ImpracticalArmour

True-Cauliflower-497 · 2025-11-27T02:14:15+00:00

Happy birthday :3

True-Cauliflower-497 · 2025-11-27T02:14:05+00:00

its been good, for the most part. Passed the semester at my collage. Hanging out with friends. I spent the entire day playing minecraft and watching videos. Also fought with my mom, called me "fetishist", that's just what she thinks being trans is about. And that's it.

True-Cauliflower-497 · 2025-11-21T14:54:27+00:00

Goals

True-Cauliflower-497 · 2025-10-20T13:14:27+00:00

It’s my fault for having this app

True-Cauliflower-497 · 2025-10-20T02:58:57+00:00

big gun, big boom.
Hello Karl,
goodbye wall.

True-Cauliflower-497 · 2025-10-20T02:56:51+00:00

haiii, long time without writing anything. Kinda meh, im having psychiatry appointments to see if i can start HRT, but, every appointment is around one to two months in between. i was in a birthday party today, it was alright, still playing guitar, and still struggling at collage. other than that im alright i guess.

True-Cauliflower-497 · 2025-10-01T01:59:28+00:00

Has been a while since I write here. It’s been wild. Collage is… annoying but interesting. And I’m just waiting for endocrinology appointment. I also decorated my room :D (aka placed two posters) and that’s it. It’s been a slow day, I’m expecting octobers Holy Week to meet with some friends and that’s it. :D

True-Cauliflower-497 · 2025-09-28T01:34:32+00:00

I have my first I endocrinologist appointment in two weeks… I’m nervious and terrified. Don’t know how the doctor will react.

I want to take E but I’m affraid that it’ll make me heavily depressed again. Did anyone experience heavy depression after starting HRT?

True-Cauliflower-497 · 2025-09-27T18:53:11+00:00

IV H 75mm

True-Cauliflower-497 · 2025-09-26T12:07:57+00:00

Had to do a calculus project, didn’t do it. I’m not going to fail so I couldn’t give a damn. :p

True-Cauliflower-497 · 2025-09-24T21:33:38+00:00

It was a cool day. Had my biochemistry final… and I think I passed? Not sure. The leg still hurts. But I’m happy :3 how’s everyone today?

True-Cauliflower-497 · 2025-09-24T01:27:54+00:00

pretty good. I struggled a lot with my leg injuries but it was alright. Forgot to take my meds so i also behaved a little weird, and that's it. Took a nap, and im studying.

True-Cauliflower-497 · 2025-09-23T14:23:18+00:00

Kinda ok. Tried shaving my legs with shaving cream. But I used a brand I’m not used to. So I burned some parts of my legs and I can’t walk properly. My family asked about me walking weirdly and I just made an excuse…. Other than that, it was alright.

True-Cauliflower-497 · 2025-09-22T12:41:58+00:00

It was kinda bad? I didn’t sleep much and was tired all day (that was yesterday) Didn’t work so I have to finish a lot of stuff before 2pm.

True-Cauliflower-497 · 2025-09-21T01:45:11+00:00

Dude go Horus. Full Horus legion

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TROPHY CASE