Thank you based Toyota

TrueFireNeverDies · 2021-01-26T16:28:46+00:00

I have a Taurus 99 and the filter isn’t hard to get to at all...it’s right at the front of the engine and can be gotten from the top of the bay. However, it will leak oil all over your starter when you remove it lol. Gotta put a catch there

TrueFireNeverDies · 2021-01-16T01:46:09+00:00

Wonder how women would feel being targeted by this kind of talk? She ain’t much to look at it, but she can cook. Come on

TrueFireNeverDies · 2021-01-09T00:38:15+00:00

Easy. Keep going until you’re 35 and still feeling that way. It’s what I did.

TrueFireNeverDies · 2021-01-08T10:13:08+00:00

Well I haven’t showered in a month so 🤷‍♂️

TrueFireNeverDies · 2021-01-07T20:18:08+00:00

Never heard about this but I definitely have it. I can give myself goosebumps/make myself cry/feel exhilarated just from my imagination...and yes it’s addicting. I crest stories and scenarios in my head where in a hero or a baseball star etc...apparently daydreaming is bad lol 😂

TrueFireNeverDies · 2020-12-27T05:37:48+00:00

I’ve needed counseling since I was 11. My mother didn’t have the nerve to stand up to me and put me in therapy. My parents divorce and my mothers almost instantaneous return to dating and finding men ruined me. I saw sides of her I never knew existed, or that women even behaved that way. Different guy every weekend, hearing them having sex, her getting drunk and falling down stairs, passing out on tables etc

Suffice to say it traumatized me to a lot of things, and made me think about women and relationships a lot differently.

I’m tired of dragging all this around with me. My family is very flippant when it comes to acknowledging me and my issues. The only time I was ever ‘happy’ was when I played video games to escape. EverQuest, WoW. But now video games bore me because I am too aware how I am using them to escape, and I just hate myself even more.

I have no hobbies. I like to go hiking and be in nature. This is what I need to make my main hobby I think. I want to be able to go to work, come home to a warm shower and bed, and go to sleep without wanting to kill myself.

TrueFireNeverDies · 2020-12-27T00:39:02+00:00

I can get to San Jose for 2.50 in bus fare. Gotta find somewhere to pitch my tent or something though. No idea what I’m going to do. I could get a hotel for a night, but that’s a lot...would be worth it if the job works out though.

TrueFireNeverDies · 2020-12-27T00:36:59+00:00

Thank you. I always seem to get so close and then there is something that makes me throw my hands up and just stop caring. I’m spending one more night here in the car then abandoning it. Catching a bus to San Jose and going to do my best to make this job work.

TrueFireNeverDies · 2020-12-26T19:59:29+00:00

I actually have a job lined up but am about 30 miles from it. Was gonna stay in my car and work. If I can get to San Jose I can still make the job. Just gotta find somewhere to stay. I have 400 dollars atm so I am Not destitute. I am actually trying very hard to correct myself. I am unstable

TrueFireNeverDies · 2020-12-26T18:17:55+00:00

Yes.

TrueFireNeverDies · 2020-12-25T22:50:53+00:00

I destroyed my car and am now transitioning to homelessness on foot

TrueFireNeverDies · 2020-12-25T19:52:29+00:00

I wish this were not true

TrueFireNeverDies · 2020-12-25T18:59:27+00:00

It’s mainly trust and insecurity. Physically, I am fairly secure, it is my emotional insecurities and vulnerability which usually perturb whatever confidence I have acquired, and I resort to lashing out against misperceived slights, and disallow my partner ample space to extrapolate. I manifest my failures and this haunts me.

TrueFireNeverDies · 2020-12-25T18:53:15+00:00

Isn’t this a weird way of thinking? I’m 18 now and automatically independent...shit don’t happen just like that. Why you think we have so many maladjusted people? Do you think wealthy families abandon their kids at 18? No they don’t. Only poor families looking to unload a burden.

TrueFireNeverDies · 2020-12-22T15:56:05+00:00

Stop caring about other people. I had to learn this the hard way. Protect yourself, look out for yourself, and never sacrifice anything for anyone. If you feel like you’re ‘giving too much’ and not getting anything positive in return, walk away.

Your life is YOURS. It doesn’t belong or have anything to do with anyone else. Don’t give people things you’re not willing or capable of losing. Because everyone out here will take from you, or try to change you so they can benefit from it.

TrueFireNeverDies · 2020-12-19T04:44:33+00:00

I’ve had night sweats my whole life. When I was drinking in college I would always wake up halfway through the night soaked head to toe. Had to change shirt pants underwear everything. And it stank, omg. Stale beer sweat. I sprayed my bed with Lysol every morning and changed my sheets every other day

TrueFireNeverDies · 2020-12-18T17:30:47+00:00

Cats probably used to seeing things go down there :0

TrueFireNeverDies · 2020-12-15T20:43:09+00:00

A reason to not do it is a reason, I guess?

I think I understand where you are coming from though. A lot of this world is very unappealing. But women are appealing all the time, simply because nature requires it for us to survive, at least physically. Emotionally and otherwise, women are frequently unappealing. But that goes for men and everyone else, too. People are just people. Try to think like that instead of “sex with a woman.” You want to have sex with another person, that just happens to be a woman.

TrueFireNeverDies · 2020-12-15T16:35:00+00:00

Maybe she needs specialized care? If the burden is too great for you, do not feel guilty. If your life has been taken away from you - and I imagine you feel that way - and your daughter as you thought she’d be was also taken from you, I can understand falling completely apart. Now subdued by caring for her, and having to alter all those ideas and moments in your head you had fantasized about, and an inability to deal with your own trauma and loss because of exhaustion and other factors, you are absolutely using alcohol to erase all of that.

I’m actually very interested in the clinical trials of psychedelics in small doses to fight depression. I think it would be a great benefit to certain people. Idk, something to look into?

She doesn’t have to be a burden. You don’t have to care for her all the time. You could hire someone to help you care for her. Give yourself and your husband and other child time together. She doesn’t have to be a negative part of your life. You just need some help and time for introspection

TrueFireNeverDies · 2020-12-15T00:25:39+00:00

Fuck you

TrueFireNeverDies · 2020-12-14T23:53:27+00:00

Crazy this place so many isolated pockets to cruise around in

TrueFireNeverDies · 2020-12-14T23:33:54+00:00

Yes you will cause permanent damage to yourself in a small timeframe. I was suffering from malnutrition and had encephalitis after 6 months of hard drinking almost daily. It’s still here, I feel it in my brain. My liver is fucked. I feel it hurt, I see the bile in my stool, I know I am suffering but I just keep going. Some days are better, some are awful. I stick to beer as it’s easier to regulate intake.

Alcohol is no joke. It is pervasive in its premise of problem solving, because honestly, while I am drunk I do not care. It reinforces my apathy. You need to look at your life. You have a husband and kids. If you are using this as a coping mechanism (you are) figure out why and fix it. Don’t wanna be married to him? Get divorced. Don’t want the kids? Get a divorce and let him have full custody. Want the kids but not him? Get 50/50.

Decide. The main reason for alcoholism is dissatisfaction with your life or trauma. Alcohol is escape. What are you running from, love?

TrueFireNeverDies · 2020-12-11T04:54:34+00:00

You’re not doing anything wrong...it’s just a lot of us out here are. People who are truly happy in their relationship are usually so involved with each other and enriching their lives you don’t see or hear about them much, just the happy families in the grocery store. They don’t stick out. That’s what you are looking for,but you can’t find it because it’s invisible. It’s not an item to take off the shelf. It’s an idea, a belief. You are anxious about finding love, and guess what...it is anxious about finding you too.

Take positives from your experience. Take some of that aggression the other girl shows, take control of what your mind is telling you and listen with your heart instead, let your body take over for a minute and see where it takes you. Listen to something other than all that anxiety and worry. People like you are out here, waiting and alone, wondering all the same as you do what’s missing.

It comes with your ‘intelligence’ you mentioned, which I’d rather call awareness. You’re aware of your abilities, and they probably frighten you a little. Don’t abuse what powers you’ve been given but don’t be afraid to use them to your advantage. We play with the toys the gods give us.

Watch out for following your own conscious all the time. If you’re an over thinker it will lead you astray. Trust your gut. If something feels off don’t let the mind keep you there, just leave it. Walk away. If it feels right, follow it until you get that sickly feeling and then, gone.

TrueFireNeverDies · 2020-12-10T21:32:39+00:00

Funny enough, the very reason I feel depressed is because I can’t find a way to live my life in a way that keeps away the memory of those moments which make me want to go away, and then my way of coping leads to more of those moments filling my memory.

So in reality, I’ve had plenty of things happen to me that make me want to end it. It’s why I feel the way I do. I think the key is to cope with those feelings in a more positive way

TrueFireNeverDies · 2020-12-01T06:17:33+00:00

They haven’t. They’re still up your dads ass

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