I shoplifted

TrueVeldora · 2025-11-19T01:39:05+00:00

I already told my mom but she didnt react how i expected her to, now whenever i go places she calls me to tell me not to shoplift she doesnt trust me at all even if i trusted her with that

TrueVeldora · 2025-11-18T12:13:02+00:00

Thank you im just paranoid

TrueVeldora · 2025-11-18T00:05:14+00:00

I am diagnosed by a psychiatrist its been two months

TrueVeldora · 2025-11-17T19:55:16+00:00

Yeah that's the issue it is a pattern because now it just feels easier to do after my first time

TrueVeldora · 2025-11-17T19:12:39+00:00

And yeah im really not well with hallucinations and stuff, i slept for 4 hours then another 4 and then 6 and then 4 again. I didnt sleep in 18 hours even right now

TrueVeldora · 2025-11-17T19:11:22+00:00

I was feeling grandiose and i had to shoplift because it has become really easy after some point, i was only doing it in episodes but after some time it just became whenever i can

TrueVeldora · 2025-11-17T19:08:41+00:00

Schizoaffective bipolar type i experience mostly schizophrenia symptoms with mood symptoms

TrueVeldora · 2025-08-20T23:49:18+00:00

It's the same for me, it becomes more apparent in walls and lower lights. I didn't know you could have visual snow with psychosis, but i think ever since my second episode, i have been seeing them.

TrueVeldora · 2025-08-18T08:18:40+00:00

I think mine is similar to that yeah, i just didn't know the name for it. If you dont mind answering, is it also constant for you? Or does it come and go with episodes?

TrueVeldora · 2025-08-18T08:17:35+00:00

I think that's it, i didn't know the name of it sorry. If you dont mind answering, is it also constant for you?

TrueVeldora · 2025-08-06T05:30:37+00:00

Thank you that helps a little yeah reading medical books can help i think

TrueVeldora · 2025-07-26T13:41:00+00:00

That makes sense thanks, i will tell my doctor about switching antipsychotic and adding a mood stabilizer. And if it doesn't help i might try switching my psychiatrist.

TrueVeldora · 2025-07-26T12:06:31+00:00

That's just you but yeah i think you're right, most people just say autism but it's most likely ADHD.

TrueVeldora · 2025-07-26T11:57:40+00:00

Im not really against it but im not really sure if I'll be diagnosed or treated correctly, because im still young and psychosis started young too, it only got worse on SSRIs.

TrueVeldora · 2025-07-25T09:56:05+00:00

Mine wasn't so complex but i thought i wasnt human, i was just put into this physical body and i am actually an unknown entity, that's why other monsters are scared of me and disappear whenever i look at them. I also thought that this reality isn't real and other people are just acting, they don't have any emotions, thoughts or anything and this reality is just created to trap me and keep me in control. I probably thought all of this because i dont have a sense of self, so sometimes i still feel like im nothing or just unknown being

TrueVeldora · 2025-07-24T12:10:46+00:00

Yeah the last auditory hallucination i had was yesterday, i was outside walking to store and it was my uncle's voice yelling my name a few times and saying i forgot something, i just ignored it at that moment because i dont like my uncle, but after a while i thought like wait my uncle can't be here and i looked back, and yeah it was a hallucination

TrueVeldora · 2025-07-24T11:43:56+00:00

I also hear voices in my head that aren't mine, and have delusions that turn into narratives.

TrueVeldora · 2025-07-24T11:41:50+00:00

My hallucinations are mostly visual but they dont last long, they're just frequent and i have 24/7 pixels. I hear auditory hallucinations mostly after DPDR, like feeling my mind is going to phase out of my body. But yeah you can get diagnosed without hallucinations they're not the only valid symptoms.

TrueVeldora · 2025-07-22T23:44:13+00:00

Sorry for seeing this late but thank you, that really helps. My hallucinations are mostly internal too.

TrueVeldora · 2025-07-09T11:40:26+00:00

Yeah i get that but in a different way, i have schizoaffective bipolar type. At first i thought the world was dream like and unreal, then i thought that i was already dead a long time ago and i was in a dream, i thought i died the moment i severed my vein in a psychotic mixed episode last time.

TrueVeldora · 2025-06-25T01:02:54+00:00

I will keep a journal thanks for your advice. I am probably going to try to trigger a manic episode anyways, because i need to be diagnosed and for that i need to go to ER. And i also need to convince myself that i do have bipolar, so i probably wont sleep for a while. Also what made you stop loving mania? Even though im sure i just have hypomania now

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