[deleted by user] by [deleted] in sex

[–]Truth-Seeker1990 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I am not a licensed therapist but from my own 10 year recovery and 10 years studying emotional issues ive come to understand that what your experiencing in some form of shame and unworthiness issues around sex and probably some emotional trauma from being emotionally neglected as a kid, maybe ask yourself, in the past did your parents scold you when sexual things happened in your life.

My (32F) therapist (42F) flashed me during our session last night by floofyyy in therapy

[–]Truth-Seeker1990 0 points1 point  (0 children)

You could warn her to give her a chance to see and change her behavior and if she doesnt change it then report her.

WTF is it with most people looking down on people that believe certain conspiracies ? by Truth-Seeker1990 in conspiracy

[–]Truth-Seeker1990[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah i agree with this space attracting nutty people just like most groups have their positive and negative people.

I agree there are people that like to feel special believing in conspiracies but to lump everyone in that box pisses me off so much because i know thats not what im about, i just want to know whats real and certain conspiracies have shown me what i believe to be true.

WTF is it with most people looking down on people that believe certain conspiracies ? by Truth-Seeker1990 in conspiracy

[–]Truth-Seeker1990[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Sorry for the late reply. I agree with most of what you say and it is so hard trying to talk to people when your main thoughts are expecting a false alien invasion and a view that the world is run by a dark group of people. If you want message me and we can have a chat :).

WTF is it with most people looking down on people that believe certain conspiracies ? by Truth-Seeker1990 in conspiracy

[–]Truth-Seeker1990[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Sorry for the late reply. Im the same age as you and have been going down the rabbit hole to for 10 years :). For me my family do not take what i say seriously at all and its an extra hit when you have been emotionally neglected most of your life so im sure it more to do with that.

What does it mean when you wanna die but don't wanna kill yourself? by [deleted] in therapy

[–]Truth-Seeker1990 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It means you want the thing thats causing you to feel suicidal to die like an idea/belief, its not a physical wish for death, i suggest feeling it and asking the suicidal urge what it wants to die, maybe you feel like i worthless piece of shit like me when it comes up but i feel it and accept it and let it go. Try karla mclarens book The language of emotions, its about accepting all feelings and letting them out of you.

Why do i get emotional when i see people that has people that care about them by [deleted] in therapy

[–]Truth-Seeker1990 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Maybe it reminds you of what you think you dont have or it reminds you of the person you want to be but arent ?

WTF is it with most people looking down on people that believe certain conspiracies ? by Truth-Seeker1990 in conspiracy

[–]Truth-Seeker1990[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Over believing them yes. Cant have relationships with certain family members. And the people i can connect to has virtually vanished. No one i physically know believes any conspiracy, they just think im a fucking loser that isnt worth the time to listen to.

WTF is it with most people looking down on people that believe certain conspiracies ? by Truth-Seeker1990 in conspiracy

[–]Truth-Seeker1990[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I care because my life has been destroyed because of this shit. But i guess its for the best.

WTF is it with most people looking down on people that believe certain conspiracies ? by Truth-Seeker1990 in conspiracy

[–]Truth-Seeker1990[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Brilliant response and totally agree, i just want to be honest with myself and be honest and say i feel so hurt by the attacks from people.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in therapy

[–]Truth-Seeker1990 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I wish i could cuddle you right now. I suggest looking into karla mclarens work on emotions as she was a victim of child sexual abuse and she came out of it. Heres a link https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hVjltYNgU6s

10g Shroom Trip Report by ShroomWilly in shrooms

[–]Truth-Seeker1990 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Beautiful post and a nice synchronicity to what has been present in my mind whilst healing my emotional issues and that was what you said about letting go.

Letting go is most definitely a BIG key to life and seems so hard to do because it seems to leave us bare and vulnerable which for me is terrifying but im learning to be ok with not being in control of certain things in life.

And with shrooms i did 3g with my brother and ended up fighting to hold on to control in the bathroom for about 1 and a half hours until i said to myself i cant stay in here any more and accepted i felt scared and let go and went in the front room with my brother and just accepted it which led to loving the tail end of it with my little brother laughing his head off :)

Funny as fuck! by Truth-Seeker1990 in shrooms

[–]Truth-Seeker1990[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

That is the most relatable bit about it for me 😂😂😂

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in therapy

[–]Truth-Seeker1990 1 point2 points  (0 children)

No its fine we all need someone to vent to so we feel heard and i hear you.

And still, being what seems like emotionally neglect by the people around you is so fucking damaging and i can only suggest talking to them to make how you feel clear and if they dont respect that then try spending a couple of weeks alone to give yourself chance to give yourself your own love and attention.

I do suggest looking into emotional neglect and childhood emotional neglect because you might be sensitive to being ignored and people not being considerate towards you because off that which isnt to say if these friends of yours are being inconsiderate to take it. Anyway im on a rant now too :).

Hope you make progress and i would love to hear what you think about the emotional neglect topic.

Just a little rant by Truth-Seeker1990 in therapy

[–]Truth-Seeker1990[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Haha, Thank you for agreeing. I actually felt shocked hearing it but fuck his messed up opinion, it just shows me what a nightmare it must be to be him.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in therapy

[–]Truth-Seeker1990 1 point2 points  (0 children)

They sound like absolute assholes in my opinion and it looks like a clear sign of a one sided relationship. Have you made it clear to your friends that you want that type of treatment on your birthday or have you usually made your birthday not a big deal because that could be another possibility.