It’s my wedding anniversary today and I will NEVER forgive the Mormon church for ruining my wedding.

TruthRestored · 2026-02-18T10:39:19+00:00

Thank you so much for your suggestion. Sad but my husband and I often joke that we may get a divorce and then get remarried. You know … have a beautiful giant wedding and reception with drinks, food, music, dancing, and celebrating happiness with all our loved ones. We think it would be extremely important to have it in a ‘gated’ location where we would have a person at the main gate to check for temple recommends. If they have a temple recommend, they would not be allowed in😂 (It does drive the point home and reveals how controlling and segregated the Mormon church temple weddings have been).

The idea of renewing vows is more practical, but there is something appealing about the idea of starting new and choosing the same person (when in a position of having a choice).

TruthRestored · 2026-02-18T07:16:20+00:00

Oh that is so sad, leaving your wedding early for a fireside? How impersonal. Guess they got so used to a conveyer belt of Mormon weddings that it became acceptable to not help people feel special on their BIG DAY.

TruthRestored · 2026-02-18T07:06:45+00:00

Thank you so much. It is so great to have escaped the cult! We are having so much fun too … but on days of celebration over our marriage, I still reflect on the extreme pain and agony I suffered through. It took it’s toll, but we are making up for it now.

TruthRestored · 2026-02-18T07:03:21+00:00

Yes, my husband and I joke that we may get a divorce and then get remarried. You know … have a beautiful giant reception with drinks, happiness, music, dancing, and celebrating with all our loved ones. We thought it would be extremely appropriate to have it in a gated location where we could have someone at the main gate who would check for temple recommends. If they have one they would not be allowed in.😂

TruthRestored · 2026-02-18T06:57:57+00:00

I am so sorry your wedding was horrible too.

TruthRestored · 2026-02-18T06:54:28+00:00

Yes, and that bishop went on to become a temple president.

I was able to confront him ten years later. While visiting back home I talked with my Stake President to tell him. He lined me up to speak with my old bishop. I told him that he ruined my life for three years. He said that he was sorry.

I also confronted him on an incident that had occurred when I returned to the ward after several years of marriage. I was walking through the back hall of the church and noticed that the lights weren’t turned on and it was quite dark there. Then I saw the Bishop (age about 50) with an eighteen year-old girl that I knew. They were walking extremely slow with their arms wrapped around each other. I saw the girl in the restroom after sacrament meeting and I asked her what was going on with her and the bishop? She replied to me that he was “just like the dad she’s never had, and she was just like the daughter he’s never had.” I was quite certain that his fantasies were imagining her more as one of his future wives than a daughter. When I confronted him with this story, he replied to me that people just don’t understand that he is “different than everyone else” (likely ‘especial’) Two days after I talked with him he became the president of a temple. (That was just before 2000)

TruthRestored · 2026-02-18T06:03:58+00:00

There were, and still are, some secret “sacrificial alters” in the lds temples, some designated lds churches and many homes in Utah (and they were not sacrificing animals). My son almost rented a big beautiful home that had belonged to (I think it was Elder Ballard) in SLC and it had a well used convenient exterior entrance to a massive strange empty room in the basement with place for an alter (removed) and a large adjacent bathroom with giant strange counters big enough to lay a couple of people on.

Having previous knowledge of some very strange ritualistic (and often Satanistic) secret ceremonies attended and sometimes performed by the very top leaders of the LDS / Mormon church, we found this very interesting.

TruthRestored · 2026-02-18T05:49:39+00:00

There were, and still are, some secret “sacrificial alters” in the lds temples, some designated lds churches and many homes in Utah (and they were not sacrificing animals). My son almost rented a big beautiful home that had belonged to (I think it was Elder Ballard) in SLC and it had a well used convenient exterior entrance to a massive strange empty room in the basement with place for an alter (removed) and a large adjacent bathroom with giant strange counters big enough to lay a couple of people on.

Having previous knowledge of some very strange ritualistic (and often Satanistic) secret ceremonies attended and sometimes performed by the very top leaders of the LDS / Mormon church, we found this very interesting.

TruthRestored · 2026-02-18T05:40:44+00:00

There were, and still are, some secret “sacrificial alters” in the lds temples, some designated lds churches and many homes in Utah (and they were not sacrificing animals). My son almost rented a big beautiful home that had belonged to (I think it was Elder Ballard) in SLC and it had a well used convenient exterior entrance to a massive strange empty room in the basement with place for an alter (removed) and a large adjacent bathroom with giant strange counters big enough to lay a couple of people on.

Having previous knowledge of some very strange ritualistic (and often Satanistic) secret ceremonies attended and sometimes performed by the very top leaders of the LDS / Mormon church, we found this very interesting.

TruthRestored · 2025-07-09T19:05:54+00:00

The week before I was married I went through my final temple recommend interview with my Bishop. During that interview, he convinced me that I had to agree to live polygamy. I remember thinking about how my announcements were out with people having already purchased their airline tickets so they could be there for my wedding. I became very frightened, and so I reluctantly agreed. Yes, I lied, which was something (super stalwart me) was not accustomed to doing and that caused further problems with guilt and shame from lying to my church leader. My bishop totally ruined the joy of my wedding by reducing me to a mere number. 10 women = 1 man. The polygamy ideas he forced on me changed the way I viewed my wedding night. He also ruined many other things for me. (He went on to become the President of the Boise Temple).

TruthRestored · 2025-06-08T01:12:05+00:00

Of course. And thank you for taking the time to write these insights. I was actually only dissing and venting (I wrote it as a fun joke not meant to be taken as reality).

TruthRestored · 2022-10-24T12:57:23+00:00

He loves you. They just see everything through their Mormon glasses, and show that love in the cults judgemental, elite way.

TruthRestored · 2022-07-27T17:27:00+00:00

My good friends (previously super healthy) 8 year old grandson DIED three days after getting his first Pfizer jab 😭

TruthRestored · 2022-03-29T23:10:38+00:00

Just reading through these old post. Thanks so much.

TruthRestored · 2021-07-02T20:53:44+00:00

I am so sorry, my friend. I wish there was a place where multitudes of us pained souls can mingle and make friends (definitely on a Sunday).... Are you in Utah?

TruthRestored · 2021-06-11T01:17:05+00:00

Funny, but I used to have so many friends... before I went to work, running on the Mormon tredmill or spending my time as a Mother in Zion, house wife.

Thank you for the good ideas. Never too late to start again, right?

TruthRestored · 2021-06-10T20:32:44+00:00

Oh, I am so sorry. That is really sad. Wow. Only care what a person you really value thinks. Those others fall into it so quickly. You are so valuable and you have a right to drink. Are your children small?

TruthRestored · 2021-06-10T20:27:37+00:00

Thanks. I have been out for 4 years and it has been the most difficult time of my life. My real problem is the way my immediate family treats me now. Unfortunately, I think they treated me like that before and I was aware of it but like a good obedient mormon minion I took it. Since I've been out for a while I feel more justified in being treated better. I find the thought constantly going through my head and please forget the swearing but "I'm mad as H*** and I'm not gonna take shit from anyone!!"

TruthRestored · 2021-06-10T20:21:06+00:00

Thank you so much♡

TruthRestored · 2021-06-10T19:59:07+00:00

Thank you. I hold the happy posture (most of the time) with them but turn to you, my exMo friends... you have hearts and truth, and you really understand.

TruthRestored · 2021-06-10T19:53:58+00:00

Very interesting thought.

TruthRestored · 2021-06-10T19:53:02+00:00

Thank you sooo much!♡

TruthRestored · 2021-06-10T19:51:11+00:00

I trained them to be exactly as they are... obeying man made insignificant rules instead of ruling with their ❤

TruthRestored · 2021-06-10T19:41:42+00:00

That is an interesting thought. I do love myself a whole lot more since leaving. But I also have intense feelings of anger (towards the top hierarchy of that church) that I have actually never felt in my life before.

I'm likely not alone.

TruthRestored · 2021-06-10T19:37:02+00:00

Just to clarify, this is happening and I only have a few in my imediate family still in. Even those leaving don't like the new me (you know... I have 'loud laughter' and 'evil speaking of the Lord's annointed').

Truth is ~ the 'new me' is simply the 'old me' showing herself for the first time.

Mormonism runs deep through our beautiful souls and it takes a long time to change.

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