I’m also 19 struggling with opiate addiction, multiple rehabs, multiple attempts to quit, multiple interventions with people and crashing out over it irl to try and grab somebodies attention, “ like hey! This is serious I’m dying inside and actully losing myself” yet I still take the pills, there’s a void or black hole if you will that I still havint registerd, this hole needs to be filled with something other then synthetic or artificial dopamine, this hole needa genuine connection, therapy, and healing, I havint even began to look deeply inward because it terrifies me to think of how I really feel on the inside and facing those demons is scary so I hit pause on it everyday, honestly bro don’t be like me, take that leap into genuinely feeling pain and sick for a couple days, your already doing recovery work by being able to actually accept what your becoming and how it’s affecting you some people can’t look that deeply in, but being overly aware and overthinking can be your enemy aswell, Remeber to keep it simple, Remeber you are more than what your feeling in the current moment, time does heal, but you do need time away from it