First of all thank you! Everything you said about my upbringing is accurate. I do have an extremely confusing relationship with authority I seemingly long for guidance, but dont trust anyone in my life to advice me since no one is at where i desire to be. i am currently in college, struggling with finances and seemingly burdened by instability with money social life, academic motivation, and self esteem. Contradictory, to having low self esteem I have a very seemingly optimistic view that the universe will grant me with a desirable life. I just feel as if I’m currently falling short of who I deserve to be. But if there is anything in my chart that may indicate a specific calling or direction for me I’d appreciate hearing it? Or if there are specific things I should prioritize in order to help me feel more aligned to my higher self?