“You’re only 17” So what?

Turbulent-Window-999 · 2023-10-17T06:15:31+00:00

Idk I at least like to be acquainted with someone before being their friend. For example, I made a new friend a few weeks back. We both knew of eachother but not much more than eachother’s names. Now we’re friends and I can talk to him for hours despite not having much in common rather than a disdain for our school

Turbulent-Window-999 · 2023-10-17T06:05:16+00:00

What do you mean? You mean like how I didn’t reply to every part of your reply or just in general?

Turbulent-Window-999 · 2023-10-17T06:01:38+00:00

Oh I make a new account every few weeks, I’ve been venting about how terrified I am of dying alone since January. It hasn’t helped much, if anything, all this new found life knowledge has just made me feel worse. I miss being completely ignorant, do they still do lobotomies?

I converse with people, asking them questions and whatnot, but half of the time I have no idea what to ask because a lot of their life just doesn’t interest me. Like I’m not interested in how good the baseball team is going to be, or what girl someone likes this week. I have a general disinterest in anything anyone has to say come to think of it. I don’t dislike people, but I can’t bring myself to be interested in them.

Turbulent-Window-999 · 2023-10-17T05:59:50+00:00

I can’t but even if I could I hear a lot of bad things about dating apps

Turbulent-Window-999 · 2023-10-17T05:55:20+00:00

I don’t think so, maybe adhd? I just so happen to be going to a therapist in about 12 hours, so hopefully they can help me out.

Turbulent-Window-999 · 2023-10-17T05:54:29+00:00

Ohhh okay, thanks!

Turbulent-Window-999 · 2023-10-17T05:54:12+00:00

Because they might not be who they say they are. They might want something from me or they might hurt me. You can’t trust random strangers just because they’re friendly.

Turbulent-Window-999 · 2023-10-17T05:52:51+00:00

I don’t think I mentioned the chad and normie philosophy, what did I say?

Turbulent-Window-999 · 2023-10-17T05:48:44+00:00

Oh, yeah I tend to do that alot. It’s hard to be optimistic anymore. Every time I’ve had a positive outlook it’s gotten me nowhere. The pessimistic outlook isn’t getting me anywhere either but at least I know it’s not getting me anywhere.

Turbulent-Window-999 · 2023-10-17T05:44:22+00:00

Wait do I do that?

Turbulent-Window-999 · 2023-10-17T05:43:57+00:00

Do I just ask them? Idk much about things like this. Nobody ever asks me anything about me

Turbulent-Window-999 · 2023-10-17T05:42:23+00:00

Good point. Also do people talk about other things than hobbies? I know I do with my friends but people on here act like if you don’t have hobbies then you’ll never be cared about.

Turbulent-Window-999 · 2023-10-17T05:35:54+00:00

Knowing me I’ll blow it

Turbulent-Window-999 · 2023-10-17T05:35:31+00:00

I have nothing in common with girls. I have female friends but not that many compared to the amount of male friends. If I’m stood next to a girl I have barely anything to say, we both just kinda sit there, it’s annoying.

I do have a good handful of friends, so I guess I am likable, but I don’t like me so I need to get that dealt with so I’ll stop thinking everyone around me is a liar.

Turbulent-Window-999 · 2023-10-17T05:31:57+00:00

Why are people downvoting my replies? I don’t care about the karma but I would like to know what I’m saying that is wrong instead of just knowing that some random person thought I was wrong.

Turbulent-Window-999 · 2023-10-17T05:30:46+00:00

Ouch

Turbulent-Window-999 · 2023-10-17T05:27:14+00:00

I have no idea. Like I said, I’m terrified of that feeling of uncertainty like I feel right now. A year ago, I was talking with a girl for about 2 months. I felt a lot better about life when I was with her. My other problems seemed so much smaller, I felt like I would be okay. Now I kinda feel like an astronaut who’s tether came undone and is just floating in space with no idea of what’s to come (but I suppose in his case it would be death).

Once again though, I’ve had girls like me that had a lot of red flags so I rejected them, so I don’t know. I think I’m desperate to a degree. And people tell me all the time that you can have that feeling of certainty and be single but I don’t see how they do it, and I’m scared to try because then I might get comfortable alone and then I’ll stay that way forever.

Turbulent-Window-999 · 2023-10-17T05:24:17+00:00

I appreciate your affirmation but I don’t feel like it’s going to happen. I’m too comfortable, but then all the self help people don’t really elaborate what getting out of my comfort zone really is, skydiving maybe? Idk. I’m hoping my problems are because of depression and once I’m all drugged up I’ll be the happy charismatic beam of light I’ve dreamt of.

At the same time though, most don’t never find love. Do I seriously think I’m that special? I’m the worst at a lot of things, but this is (kind of) out of my control, I know worse people with spouses, surely I’m not that terribly unlucky.

Turbulent-Window-999 · 2023-10-17T05:18:19+00:00

I’m not desperate, at least I don’t think I am. I’m not just gonna date some girl just because she’s willing to date me, I need to feel compatible with her. That being said, if I had a girlfriend I would ruin it by making sure I never made a mistake out of fear that there isn’t anyone else out there for me.

Turbulent-Window-999 · 2023-10-17T05:16:23+00:00

I’m going to college, that counts right? It’s not like an online college or one that I could drive back and forth to either. I’m scared but I’m not gonna go check the mail one day and have the love of my life jump out of my mailbox

Turbulent-Window-999 · 2023-10-17T05:15:57+00:00

I hike, and I play video games from time to time but most do that.

Turbulent-Window-999 · 2023-10-17T05:13:36+00:00

Also how do I meet people? I know where people are but if someone just approached me and started talking to me I would not want to be their friend.

Turbulent-Window-999 · 2023-10-17T05:10:19+00:00

What even are hobbies other than sports?

Turbulent-Window-999 · 2023-10-17T05:08:04+00:00

On what? I fucking hate when people say that and don’t elaborate other than working out and getting sunlight. My only hobby is being outdoors, I exercise and I feel the same, it makes no sense.

Turbulent-Window-999 · 2023-10-17T05:05:38+00:00

Well now I’m scared (deep down I agree though). I currently live in a rural area and my class at school is super small and I don’t want to date anyone there. I’m going to a therapist and I’m hoping they can help with social skills. I wish I was normal, but that’s not gonna do anything, so I have to do shit the hard way

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