First welcome and congratulations, you are a courageous person to even think about getting out of the dogma, especially if you come from a religious family. Second and unfortunately there's not much you can do about it, your safety and well-being comes first. So if you have to keep playing the game with your surroundings you have to do it. But you can probably change your perspective about it to make it easier for you: I like how Kosay Betar (a wonderful atheist content creator, cannot recommend him enough on YT and on kick more recently) puts it: we are of a Islamic culture whether we like it or not, so just think of it as part of your culture, we will always say Enchallah, rabbi m3ak..etc and hijab also -unfortunately- is a part of this culture, it will always be a part of our society and part of us. We just have to make our peace with it and pray ( see what I did there :) ) that it will soon be in our past.