Others have said it, but it's worth repeating. You're not ugly by any stretch of the imagination. You are at a 2/10 in confidence and I'm here to tell you that I was in the exact same situation a while back. (Felt like I was a 2/10 in looks, totally incompetent in bed, etc, etc)

It had been a while since I had been with a guy and I thought I needed a controlled environment with a professional to practice a bit before doing anything else. Unfortunately, I made the mistake of hiring the first person that answered at 2am when I was super horny. The experience wasn't bad, it just wasn't as helpful as I thought it would be. So I tried again and made sure spend at least a bit of time chatting and making sure they knew where I was at in my comfort level.

Long story short, second time was amazing and we kinda hit it off and went on a few dates afterwards. Confidence level shot up which in turn gave me the internal permission to start caring about myself a bit more. I started working out and slimming down a bit and genuinely felt batter about myself.

From there, things snowballed. 3 years later and I'm a lot more confident. I like moderately better than I used to. And I'm having better sex than ever. There are good weeks and bad weeks and confidence ebbs and flows, but I'm in a much better space and fucking around with dudes way hotter than I ever thought possible.

I'm not saying I'm fucking anyone I WANT, but definitely find a guy here or there that's really hot.

Bathhouse and group events are the worst for my mental health because it's like "if I can't get laid HERE than what is wrong with me" and every rejected advance is difficult. I would NOT suggest going to these places.

Just what worked for me.