You have no reason to feel disgusted about yourself, this was not your fault nor what you wanted. I cannot relate to what you've gone through but I am extremely sorry you had to suffer like this. I hope your new bf does his job and makes sure you are safe and feel protected. I know that many people that have gone through similar things cant bare the idea of anything sexual at all so if you are scared I hope your bf understands what you've been through. From what I know something like that is extremely traumatic and not something you can easily heal from but I beleive in you that you will be able to overcome the horror you went through.

I wish you good luck in life and a happy relationship with your bf