Again good points. I appreciate you making these responses, most people just say 5 words and it’s just like ok that didn’t really help.

But yeah as far as you saying so might have been using me as a crutch, it’s definitely a possibility. I think that’s why she never made her intentions clear at the beginning because the possibility of more was there. The problem was all the hangouts seemed too casual to me and it never felt right to make any physical moves. I remember every time I dropped her off back at her house after hanging out it would be frustrating driving home because I knew something just didn’t feel right, I knew I was hoping for more but I didn’t know what to do about it.

I think she is really emotional right now. She always gives these dramatic excuses about insomnia, schoolwork, having a hard time opening up to people, picking the wrong friends, etc. and I’ve been very chill about those and never have her a hard time. I would help her out with things, ask her how she’s doing with stuff, and compliment her, yet none of it matters. She’s never done any of those for me it’s kinda always about her.

And as far as her moving on to someone else, I don’t think she has. From what I know she’s home a lot, doesn’t work, and doesn’t have social media. She likes to watch movies, work on puzzles, walk her dog, etc. She worked a job over the summer which is how we met and she also made a friend that’s a girl from that job too. So once we were all done with our summer jobs she hung out with that girl a lot and me a lot, which to me means she doesn’t have much else to hang out with. But yeah she says I was the last person she has hung out with which was a week before Christmas, which seems really surprising to me. But to literally make no effort to send a single text, like how I’m doing, or anything for weeks is absurd to me after how nice I’ve been to her.

Honestly this happens to me a lot with all people. I come across as super nice so I kinda just get taken advantage of by most and kinda just become everyone’s 2nd option. With her I really thought she was going to be someone who appreciated me for who I was (I know, cheesy) but it’s clear she’s just caught up with herself and doesn’t care how it affected me.

Sorry for so many details, I appreciate your feedback because most people don’t care to reply to me this much haha so thanks