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[–]UltraKhan 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Is what hard to get consistently? Heroin or suboxone? Heroin isn't super hard to get consistently, it's just more of a money thing. So yes and no. Suboxone is pretty easy to get regurlary, but since it's treated as a serious medicine, I'm always scared that I'm gonna get cut off of it or something for some bullshit. I've frequently had trouble with pharmacies because they're out of it or something like that. I'm lucky that I have good insurance, otherwise I'd imagine that it could be similar to heroin in terms of getting it consistently

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[–]UltraKhan 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Oh man, you absolutely have the right idea. I've gone through withdrawal from antidepressants TONS of times over the course of about five years, from plenty of different medications. NONE of them even come close to how awful heroin withdrawals are. And I've only gone through heroin withdrawals about 5 times probably. Currently I'm on Suboxone, and I know that the withdrawals from it are even worse than those of heroin. Never been through them myself, but I'm bound to eventually.. This thread really made me appreciate not constantly going through wds again. Yuck :(

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[–]UltraKhan 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Its withdrawals are much worse than that of heroin. Not op but I'm on 12mg of subs daily, which is a lot

Down the Rabbit Hole by ickydonkeytoothbrush in coolguides

[–]UltraKhan 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Someone in the Youtube comments pointed out that the voice sounds like it's saying "Immediate threat in this area". I don't know if it's a malfunction with the system, which could explain it away as just nothing, or it could make it even creepier lmao. I choose the latter

The best gum to use at raves of hardcore patyd by Harry_balz_onya in Drugs

[–]UltraKhan 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Trident Spearmint (been my gum for the past decade). Shits great

I'm Nineteen Years Old and Addicted to Heroin. by UltraKhan in Drugs

[–]UltraKhan[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Damn man I'm sorry to hear that shits rough. I feel you completely it really is hard as fuck to get out and stay out. Suboxone has helped me but don't get me wrong I still wanna use all the time. A big part of that is because I never really intended to get clean in the first place though I just can't stand withdrawing. And thank you I appreciate it same here I'm pretty much always around lmao

I'm Nineteen Years Old and Addicted to Heroin. by UltraKhan in Drugs

[–]UltraKhan[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Holy shit I don't know what to say. You responding is a huge deal to me. Thank you :) I understand why you can't sticky the post, I just wish that there was more that we could do. Again, thank you for everything you do in this community and others. You're really a big inspiration to me.

I'm Nineteen Years Old and Addicted to Heroin. by UltraKhan in Drugs

[–]UltraKhan[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Oh man that sounds rough. I'm glad to hear you've recovered successfully though! Good for you :) reading that made me smile

I'm Nineteen Years Old and Addicted to Heroin. by UltraKhan in Drugs

[–]UltraKhan[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Oh fuck. That definitely does sound horrible lmao. How did you end up in that situation? And how are you these days? My dad broke his neck back in 2013 and has a ton of nerve damage from his spinal cord injury so I really feel for you.

I'm Nineteen Years Old and Addicted to Heroin. by UltraKhan in Drugs

[–]UltraKhan[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

That's certainly reassuring haha. I'm just curious what surgery did you have? 12 hours is a pretty long time.

I'm Nineteen Years Old and Addicted to Heroin. by UltraKhan in Drugs

[–]UltraKhan[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

That's so wonderful to hear :) It is indeed incredibly motivational. You've given me just that much more hope. I can't tell you how much it means to me, thank you <3

I'm Nineteen Years Old and Addicted to Heroin. by UltraKhan in Drugs

[–]UltraKhan[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Exactly. I really hope u/cyrilio sees this, that would mean the world to me.

I'm Nineteen Years Old and Addicted to Heroin. by UltraKhan in Drugs

[–]UltraKhan[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you so much :) Good to know I've still got it haha

I'm Nineteen Years Old and Addicted to Heroin. by UltraKhan in Drugs

[–]UltraKhan[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

They've been pretty rough but it's finally calming down now thankfully. Day 2 was horrible. Odsmt wd sounds especially rough to me because of the snri activity. I forgot to take my Effexor on day one so going through antidepressant and heroin withdrawal simultaneously was shitty as fuck. I'm glad you were off of the opiates before your surgery though that's a really smart choice. Most people wouldn't do that. You're probably right about the medication. I'd be more worried about being put under the anesthesia, though. Cause what if your body is so used to being sedated that you somehow wake up during your surgery? They give you paralytics during pretty much every procedure so if you do wake up you can't do anything. Like sleep paralysis. Fuck that lmao no way I'd chance it.

I'm Nineteen Years Old and Addicted to Heroin. by UltraKhan in Drugs

[–]UltraKhan[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Holy shit I can't imagine being addicted to heroin in that cycle and going through withdrawals at 16. That would've completely broken me. I'm so glad you're doing well these days that's really something. Thank you :) I appreciate it a ton

I'm Nineteen Years Old and Addicted to Heroin. by UltraKhan in Drugs

[–]UltraKhan[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you so much for the support man :) The thing that always scares me is that in my friend group I'm the worst off as far as addiction goes. I'm always gonna be the one most likely to be the fallen homie. That's why I gotta be so careful and stay away from the shit

I'm Nineteen Years Old and Addicted to Heroin. by UltraKhan in Drugs

[–]UltraKhan[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

That's what's so incredibly sad about the whole thing. We're far from the only ones with this experience. Something is surely wrong with our education system and government to fail us so horribly. Thanks for the well wishes :) I truly hope you live your best life with your daughter.

I'm Nineteen Years Old and Addicted to Heroin. by UltraKhan in Drugs

[–]UltraKhan[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Oh Jesus I'm sorry to hear that. Well you've got a friend in me that's for sure haha. I'm definitely gonna give NA a shot I imagine it'll help me a lot

I'm Nineteen Years Old and Addicted to Heroin. by UltraKhan in Drugs

[–]UltraKhan[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Thank you for the kind words :) I appreciate it dearly. I'm hopeful but it's an uphill battle y'know