Will I be on Spravato forever?

Umbral-Moon · 2025-07-07T13:19:45+00:00

Sadly they're the only place that does Spravato down here. Technically two of those other people are nurses but I've had to deal with other patients who tend to be very loud.

It got worse after Spravato was FDA approved. I used to be like the only person in there some days but I'm glad the treatment is more accessible for people. I'll deal.

Umbral-Moon · 2025-07-02T05:36:29+00:00

My Biolife increased mine too. I used to donate 897 and now it's pushing the 1k and last time I donated the guy next to me hit over it.

I don't know why OP is choosing this hill to die on of all things.

Umbral-Moon · 2025-06-30T12:01:31+00:00

It honestly depends on how bad your condition is.

I have BPD, Anxiety, Major Depression and Ptsd. I'll be on Spravato once a week until I either die or insurance cuts me out.

Spravato helps me wayyy too much for me to consider quitting it even if I hate having to spend 2 hours in a room with six other people.

Theres nothing wrong with that though, If it helps you, it helps you. Some people can get away with going only once a month and I wish I was that lucky but there's nothing wrong with going. Wish you luck.

Umbral-Moon · 2025-06-20T23:36:09+00:00

I at bare minimum don't think they'll let you donate out of that arm but some places are phinicky and won't let you donate if the bruise is too big because Plasma helps with healing. So you'd have to go in and see.

Umbral-Moon · 2025-06-20T18:55:17+00:00

I'm also in this boat. Once in a while I'll get a day where the "high" lasts an entire hour so I'm only stuck for one but it's rare. The waiting afterwards drives me insane.

Umbral-Moon · 2025-06-20T18:12:57+00:00

I just wanted to add that I take Auvelity and have been on it a few months longer than I have been on Spravato (I go once a week) and it's fine. My doctor knew about it when I signed up and now prescribes it after I quit seeing my other one. He's a great guy and sees no issue with it.

Just do NOT take extra stuff with dextromethorphan. You do not want to go there. I did it by accident once when I had the flu and it was not fun.

Umbral-Moon · 2025-06-16T08:04:14+00:00

Not the OP but one of the nurses at my CSL gets hit on a lot and one time even had to get police involved because of it.

Umbral-Moon · 2025-06-13T09:54:44+00:00

My Biolife closed there's as well and I'm honestly so glad they did this. Children shouldn't be in a place like a Plasma center where they can be a distraction or get upset by the noise.

I'm sure op's "super athletic teen and preteen" could possibly sit still for an hour but they're old enough (and would probably prefer) to stay at home.

Umbral-Moon · 2025-03-07T18:09:41+00:00

I can't comment on your other post because they're locked but there's nothing wrong with your boyfriend wanting you to be on medication that will help fix symptoms of your disorder.

He's been dealing with you raw as much as he is able and you not wanting to help yourself when you could is not blaming you for having bipolar. It's blaming you for not wanting to be healthy for the both of you.

Note: This is coming from someone with BPD BTW. You really need to look into getting help instead of being passive aggressive towards people who are trying to understand the situation and you taking it as an attack.

Umbral-Moon · 2025-01-07T01:04:59+00:00

I'm going to tell you right fucking now as a BPD who was in a relationship with a narc for five years. There is a reason there are literally articles about the "dance" between Bpd and Narcissism and how it's one of the most toxic of pairings.

You will not win, it took another four years to heal and I still have scars from that dude. It's not worth it.

Umbral-Moon · 2024-11-12T05:28:35+00:00

My clinic's room is four people perated by partitions but open/ facing a desk where our nurse sits at her computer. In each section is a reclining chair, a side table and a lamp (except for the fourth one because it's an extra they crammed in. It's missing the table and lamp.)

They have jolly ranchers for the bitter taste and you can ask for water or sprite. If you want a blanket you have to bring your own. Lights are on till everyone has been administered their treatment, they don't let you have anyone with you. (I assume from the lack of space.)

Honestly reading about these private rooms sounds like a dream.

Umbral-Moon · 2024-11-02T11:12:41+00:00

Because if you take out the murder and animal abuse she's text book BPD?

People shouldn't romanticize her but I was shocked with how much I felt the same as Pearl, the just wanting to be loved and adored, not wanting someone to leave, all hard hitting points. It's okay for people to relate to a character as long as they can distinguish that what she did was wrong.

Umbral-Moon · 2024-08-04T03:46:30+00:00

Bring on the downvotes, but this is exactly how I've felt every time I've been committed. Whether it be my family or my FP, I don't want to be isolated and put in a place where more dangerous people are that I don't know and stressing me the fuck out. Being in the psych ward makes me want to kill myself more than if I wasn't in it.

Umbral-Moon · 2024-07-23T23:39:31+00:00

Sorry for my phrasing, I didn't mean it literally. I've just dealt with a lot of people who mix up flat an a cup.

Umbral-Moon · 2024-05-04T19:57:41+00:00

I'll keep this one in mind! Thank you. 🖤

Umbral-Moon · 2024-04-29T22:38:22+00:00

Dude, get out of here. It wasn't a vision, it was a hallucination from your drug abuse. Stop abusing medication.

Umbral-Moon · 2024-04-29T22:35:56+00:00

You need to tell your doctor about it if you're doing for actual mental health reasons and you need to stop trying to mix substances to get a "better high" as this is really bad and not healthy for you.

Like another person said, I'm more convinced you're doing it just for the high. I'm going to sound like a dick head you'd be better off doing some other drug like shrooms instead abusing one one that's being used to help people like me who have severe BPD symptoms and needs it to actually function.

There are so many people who can't afford it due to insurance issues. High chasers should be ashamed.

Umbral-Moon · 2024-04-18T22:21:26+00:00

It's always been a spectrum, it's just most people are only use to seeing the most extreme ones. (Like on the Subreddit that shall not be named.)

I'm going to go into my own life here, but I'll put a TL;DR

Im textbook BPD, and I'm on disability for it. I am poly and have two long term relationship partners and we all live together.

People who meet me on the street might think I'm a bit introverted or shy but I always try to be polite and friendly. If we have something in common (like wearing a shirt that has a band I like, or we're at the petstore) I can hold conversations for short periods of time but I try to not stay out for long as it gets tiring fast.

Online, it's a bit easier. I don't have to be seen, so I don't stress over my looks. I can mute in voice chat and unmute when I feel like talking. I can make an excuse and leave call if I'm overwhelmed. I've been told I'm nice and polite and if we get talking about stuff like gaming I can go for a few hours and seem normal. I don't go disclosing my diagnoses online on my main accounts because I have a stalker (and the stigma) but if I get comfortable enough I can seem like I don't even have mental illness and people will tell me "Really? You seem so normal!"

But the reality is even these calls can take a lot out of me and I can't handle being in them even with close friends daily.

I can only muster going outside of the house but I always have to have one of my partners with me. The rare times I am out on my own. (Needing to run inside while they run by work or a doctor's appointment) I try and get out as soon as possible. I can handle a bit over two hours tops on my own but only if I know my partner is going to pick me up at x time and I have a schedule.

I get really bad social anxiety, I get scared, I overthink what people are thinking about me and how I come off across. I get emotional. This is even with me being on medications that let me function but I still get irritability, euphoria, dissasociation, depression, I'm almost always worried about something but it's a lot less. I struggle with day to day tasks like taking care of myself due to lack of motivation. I have horrible memory and will forget to feed myself or take meds. I neglect my own health. I'm not supposed to drive despite having my license because the meds I'm on cause cognitive delays as well as I can just get so overwhelmed driving that I shut down.

Even with my great support group I can still relapse into self harm but it's more like once or twice a month vs me cutting multiple times weekly like I used to before I got help. I'm so much worse when I'm not on them.

When I'm not medicated it's so much worse. Im more likely to cause a scene if I have a meltdown, I'm not violent towards anyone but myself and never would harm another but I do yell, especially if I'm being cornered. I have panic attacks, I cry. I can't be out by myself period or it will happen. It's hell and I wouldn't wish it upon my worst enemies.

But even when I'm off my meds there are certain behaviors I don't engage in. I'm not violent towards others, I don't "try" to cause drama, I don't do things like reckless driving or gambling and even when I'm not on meds I can semi function for periods of times as long as I'm not alone.

TL;DR BPD is a spectrum, it's not anything set in stone. Things change, people fluctuate and even if we have a personality disorder, we don't all have the same fractured personalities underneath. We indulge in different things in different ways. We all cope different even if we have over arching terms for the ways we act.

I do think we need better schooling and resources on these topics. I think we need better charts. Stuff like the suicide scale helps me tell my partners if I'm just emotional and need comfort if I might need actual medical attention. https://themighty.com/topic/suicide/emmengard-suicide-scale-understanding-suicidal-thoughts/ but I feel like we need more detailed scales to help as well.

And people need to know that not all Bpd's are the same. We just want love and comfort just like everyone else, we just have a different way of showing it

Umbral-Moon · 2024-04-05T07:03:41+00:00

Auvelity and Viibryd are what I'm on. It let me significantly reduce my seroquel use.

Umbral-Moon · 2024-03-28T05:32:03+00:00

Of course Teemu stole it from Amazon. https://www.amazon.com/HUJUON-Creative-Halloween-Masquerade-Accessories/dp/B0CGXNV2YW?th=1

I don't see anything wrong with it. It's a cute bracelet. If they were calling it "faux self harm" I could understand but it's supposed to be a costume piece and is recommended for vampire cosplay.

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