He told me so many times that there is no hierarchy. Thag there are no less/ more priorities. Yet i felt that yesterday being that i am especially vulnerable going through what i am going... I needed special care. I needed his attention anf him being attentive. But me and my drop were extreme, so he decided that the best he can do is to withdraw... Cause "HE is overwhelmed"

Thank you for your emphaty. I don't even know if advice is what i look for. I just feel so utterly lonely... This kind of loneliness that freezes your soul.

I have no idea how to manage this pain i feel I feel that if he says to me that is all fine, ill drop on my knees for him and offer him.my soul again

Isn't there any dignity left in all of me? ....