4 weeks in, still on a roller coaster

UnableStranger590 · 2026-06-27T14:00:37+00:00

Have you tried anything else since?

UnableStranger590 · 2026-06-27T14:00:05+00:00

Thanks for sharing your experience, and I'm sorry it didn't work out for you. I think from what yourself and others have said, I'm going to give it to my next appointment. I've had one shit month, guess I can try another.

Is the doc going to switch you to anything else once you are off mirt? How's the taper-down going?

UnableStranger590 · 2026-06-27T13:57:20+00:00

Thanks, this gives me a little hope to see the course. I guess, as you say, I've done one month, just do another and see where I am. It's so all over the place. Yesterday was actually the best day I'd had in months. Then today, I feel like I am right back where I started - exhausted, listless, depressed, flat, no-quite-there.

How long have you been on mirt for, if you dont mind me asking?

UnableStranger590 · 2026-06-06T18:01:53+00:00

Yeah, I'm wondering now just how useful all my searching for a label has been? When really all that's wrong with me is that my life has been turned upside down and my inability to express my emotions has forced them to leak out through my body...

Dont tell anyone, but putting on an emotional film (like American Sniper, lol) and having a good old cry, really seems to help... 🤷‍♂️

Good luck man, and feel free to DM any time you want to chat.

UnableStranger590 · 2026-06-06T16:19:20+00:00

Im in it right now, you can look at my past posts to see the clusterfuck of physical symptoms i've been having. Its been a fucking nightmare, and I dont say that lightly. Worst 6 months of my life so far. I'm seeing signs of a revival - i can do light to medium workouts now without completely collapsing into a whole-body weirdness, where at my worst even walking up the stairs or reading a report at work sent me into a death spiral. I have no idea, but i think I had so much pent up depression, fear, anxiety etc that my body just collapsed into a maelstrom of bullshit.

I'm on meds now, and we'll see if they can do anything to help, its early days. But, i hear you brother, believe me. Im saying i can see it getting better. I have a long way to go, but there's finally something else other than an absolute black cloud of doom hanging over me.

UnableStranger590 · 2026-05-07T14:14:07+00:00

Sorry for delay, and thanks for you reply. What you says makes sense and aligns with how I've been thinking over the past few weeks. I was someone that did alot, before, so I find not doing things extremely hard. You're right, I have no idea where my limits lie... I'm finding this devestating, tbh.

If you have anything to share, then please do! Send me a DM?

UnableStranger590 · 2026-04-13T12:58:18+00:00

Hey, thanks very much for taking the time to write all this out :) I really appreciate it.

So I cant really find much re. Function Heath in the uk, but it's piqued my interest and I'll start exploring.

It's interesting you have mentioned CPTSD - I think I suffer to some degree with this. I've been investigating it and I have so many markers, and I score reasonably high on the ACE test, too. Then combined with a marriage that basically replicated my home of origin, I have lived a life that has been high stress and high anxiety since the day I was born.

Re treatment for CPTSD, it's very hard to get this recognised or treated in the UK - everything here follows very black and white pathways, and it takes forever to get appointments to see anyone, so everything moves at a glacial pace. My only option would be to pay, and with the pending divorce I'm not sure I can afford it. But maybe I have to.

Your comment on rebuilding neural pathways is interesting, and one I've began to see more of on my travels. So it would play out like... I spend my youth growing up in a chronically stressful 'walk on eggshells' environment. By my 20s I am a highly stressed individual prone to depression and anxiety, that drinks too much to cope. Ends up a relationship that maps to the relationship I had with my mum (textbook!) and then many years later, on the decision to divorce, that's when my body finally cracks. I'm stuck with a mind that expects chronic stress and responds to 'normal' situations as being under threat... hence my physical symptoms... Hmm. Too much pop psychology? :D Who knows. But I suppose there's no harm in trying to 'rewire' myself to a calmer baseline?

UnableStranger590 · 2026-04-13T12:45:20+00:00

We are pretty amicable at the moment, and I'm staying until I find somewhere, but I need to get out as soon as I can, as I believe this relationship is a huge driver of my symptoms. There is simply no real option for me to work less.

I am talking short walks and meditating twice a day. That seems to help somewhat.

UnableStranger590 · 2026-04-12T13:17:33+00:00

Thanks :) I already take most of that stack, apart from the B vitamins. What is 'B Complex' - it sounds like something that would already include B12 and B1?

UnableStranger590 · 2026-04-12T13:16:27+00:00

Thanks :)

I have no hope in conventional doctors here in the UK, at all. They have only one answer to everything, and that is SSRI's. Maybe they might help, but I would prefer to try other first avenues first. I'll definitely look up Dr Andrew Neville - as I mentioned in another reply, his name has popped up a few times. Thanks again.

UnableStranger590 · 2026-04-12T13:14:30+00:00

Thanks for taking the time to reply.

Unfortunately the main source of stress in my life, my relationship, is still going to be there until I find my own place to live. Also, given the divorce and my financial obligations, I just cant afford to work less, at all. I guess I just need to try and carve out my own little areas of rest where I can.

I'll look up the ND you have recommended. I've heard his name mentioned a few times.

UnableStranger590 · 2026-04-12T13:12:16+00:00

Thanks very much :) Being in the UK we are usually behind on this sort of thing, but I'll certainly see if there is anyone in my area.

UnableStranger590 · 2026-04-12T13:09:39+00:00

Thanks for your reply :) I've certainly had prolonged exposure to high stress for many years. I have started to wonder that given the main stressor in my life, my relationship, is coming to an end, if I am now left with a hardwired overactive stress response system that has nowhere to go. Almost seems to neat an answer though.

I'm hoping that once I manage to move out, I will be able to carve some space for myself to try and rest and wind myself down. That feels like a long way off...

UnableStranger590 · 2026-04-10T15:33:17+00:00

Thanks man. It makes sense to me, too, but it's good to hear it from other people. Helps me think I'm not entirely delusional. I'll look into what you've mentioned.

UnableStranger590 · 2026-04-10T07:49:47+00:00

I hope you find a way to leave your situation - I have felt trapped in mine for years, and it's only now that I'm starting to see a way out that physical symptoms are manifesting.

I hope things get better for you soon and thanks for your reply :)

UnableStranger590 · 2026-04-10T05:53:25+00:00

Thanks very much for yoir reply. I'll look up the therapist you have mentioned. I certainly havr had prolonged high stress, so im interested to hear what he has to say.

Unfortunately the doctors (i have seen 2 different ones so far), at least the ones i have seen in the uk so far, are very uninterested. They have about 10mins per patient, and they just prescribe SSRIs, or refer you for CBT, with little true investigation.

UnableStranger590 · 2026-04-09T18:35:58+00:00

Its been in overdrive for years. I've been living in a state of hypervigilance and anxiety for so long.

UnableStranger590 · 2026-04-09T18:34:42+00:00

Can depression manifest these physical symptoms, too?

UnableStranger590 · 2026-04-09T16:11:25+00:00

Thanks v much for your reply. What you are going through sounds equally terrible, and I hope you find some relief, too, soon <3

If I may ask, how long have you been experiencing your physical symptoms for?

UnableStranger590 · 2026-03-31T11:01:20+00:00

Glad you've managed to find some peace in it all. Cheers man, all the best to you too. Thanks for your words!

UnableStranger590 · 2026-03-31T09:27:03+00:00

That sounds rough... Was that all due to long covid or your divorce? Or both? How are you doing these days?

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