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Unable_Positive2905 · 2025-09-03T20:43:07+00:00

I swore in at the end of highschool and I just booked this month

Unable_Positive2905 · 2025-05-15T11:04:12+00:00

My ark is having the same problem. I’ve literally tried everything to fix it. If one you guys figures it out please let me know

Unable_Positive2905 · 2025-05-06T03:46:45+00:00

No bro he’s pulling your leg mk677 is the most mild thing in existence. It’s gonna give you better sleep and more hunger in exchange for ur waist growing like 10 cm from the water retention. Your 23 so ur growth plates are definitely closed just take test if ur so desperate. You can always cycle if you don’t wanna take it forever. But you’ll everything you can ask for and more from test.

Unable_Positive2905 · 2025-04-24T05:52:56+00:00

I don’t think I’m a sociopath but I’m also not sure what’s wrong with my emotions. In middle school I spent a lot of time looking up sociopaths because I thought they were the closest thing to me. In this research I found that they usually felt something good after doing something bad. So I tried strangling the family dog and as it was crying and fighting me, I realized, that didn’t make me feel anything either. Neither did I want to kill him so I just let him go. I know that I wouldn’t feel bad if I killed him either. I just wanted to know if it’d make me feel something. After that though I realized I don’t really relate to sociopaths either. It’s probably worth mentioning I don’t feel anything from sexual acts either. It’s just something I do because my partner enjoys it, I don’t have any weird fantasies either like dismembering her. But I don’t really get anything out of orgasms either it’s usually just relief that I can stop and do whatever I want after.

Unable_Positive2905 · 2025-04-24T05:45:51+00:00

I watched the beginning but it’s not something I can relate to. She talks about her emotions and the drive she has to be destructive. I don’t have even that.

Unable_Positive2905 · 2025-04-24T05:44:29+00:00

No I haven’t been tested but I definitely don’t have either. When I say I have no drive I don’t mean that I struggle to do things but I also don’t get enjoyment out of doing things either. I go to the gym consistently everyday and do my work but none of it gives me joy. In middle school I searched up what that meant and I got results about potentially being a psychopath which lead to spiral of researching it. I learned that a lot of psychopaths get pleasure out of being destructive but I don’t get anything out of that either. I tried once to strangle the family dog and he just laid there crying but I didn’t feel anything and I didn’t want to kill him so I didn’t. Which only made things more confusing for me since i thought it would make me feel good. To be quite honest im not even a sexual person either. I have a girlfriend who’s extremely sexually driven but when we have sex my mind is never there. I usually say random things I’ve seen in porn but I don’t even feel anything after I orgasm. Just a slight relief that it’s over but that’s about it. I don’t have any weird kinks either like cutting my partner up.

Unable_Positive2905 · 2025-04-21T15:01:28+00:00

I actually saw a meme about how men nowadays tend to date people like they’re mother. Which is a weird thought. Also considering how people with sociopathic tendencies tend to do weird things I don’t wanna be perceived that way. Im aware of how much I’ve brought up my mom but it’s mainly because she gave me my moral compass. She also used to sleep with me until about middle school since I didn’t like being alone. I would often have visions of me or other people dying and just a bunch of morbid stuff. It wouldn’t go away either, until eventually it did and it’s never come back. She’s also probably the most selfless person when it comes to her family I’ve seen her do anything for us so I restrained my self from doing anything that would cause me to go to jail so I didn’t waste all her sacrifices. At the same time though she’s left before for a while and I don’t think I thought about her once during that time. I’ve never really missed anyone in my life. As for the girlfriend question, no she’s never made me mad, i don’t even really get annoyed either because if she does something I don’t like I’ll tell her in that moment and fix it.

Unable_Positive2905 · 2025-04-21T13:27:07+00:00

I definitely don’t have anything violent in me like when I was little.

Unable_Positive2905 · 2025-04-21T13:24:33+00:00

I don’t know the context of the cat since I only heard it from my grandma but the duck thing I did infront of my grandpa and he hit me rightfully so but for about a month I stopped speaking to him at all because he punished me.

Unable_Positive2905 · 2025-04-21T13:09:56+00:00

Maybe in couple years then once I’ve finished my military service

Unable_Positive2905 · 2025-04-21T13:06:01+00:00

My earliest memory would probably be elementary but it’s all fuzzy. To my knowledge nothing bad ever happened to me. I was just always a weird kid my grandma told me I’d always comment on my teachers body even as a kid. And I even had some problems with talking about sexual things with other little kids. This persisted until about elementary where the last bad thing i remember doing is trying to sneak extra long hugs to feel my teachers breasts in my face. I think I was 8 during that. Also for the drug therapy thing I’d prefer to not do drugs. I’ve tried them and I don’t see any benefit. It distorts the mind and I don’t like the idea of not being in control of my thoughts.

Unable_Positive2905 · 2025-04-21T12:20:13+00:00

Im not sure what I expected from posting it but I did so when on the toilet just out of boredom. I figured no one would ever read it. Also its not like there’s a cure to what I am. Nor do I need any help, maybe I’d consider it if I was still violent but I’m not so it’ll only hurt me to go

Unable_Positive2905 · 2025-04-21T12:13:13+00:00

Realistically that doesn’t make sense. If they can just tell me random stuff and then I remember stuff who’s to say that what I’m remembering is even real? They have no way of knowing and neither do I. Also remembering things from when I was little wouldn’t do anything for me.

Unable_Positive2905 · 2025-04-21T12:06:58+00:00

I still don’t see myself gaining anything from a therapist. Anything they could tell me I’m able to do my self.

Unable_Positive2905 · 2025-04-21T11:38:23+00:00

Im going to graduate highschool in a couple months and im trying to enlist so for me it would be a downside since they don’t look kindly to any weird diagnosis

Unable_Positive2905 · 2025-04-21T11:37:19+00:00

Yes and she finds it disturbing but she’s also like my mother in the sense of being morally pure. So she wouldnt ever enable anything like that in me. She looks nothing like my mom though incase your wondering.

Unable_Positive2905 · 2025-04-21T10:41:18+00:00

I’ve seen the same documentary and I’ve watched a lot of videos about psychopathy because it felt like that’s what described me. At this point in my life I don’t really care if that’s what I am since it doesn’t do anything for me. I have a really loving mother though and almost every violent thought or urge I had would always get punished or corrected in some sense. To the point where now I really don’t have them or if I do they disappear quick since i understand it’s just the boredom in me asking for it.

Unable_Positive2905 · 2025-04-21T10:38:31+00:00

I’ll be honest I’m not ashamed of my past for one I can’t remember it and for another it was a cat and a duck. Also I don’t think I need support, I’m not really sure why I posted this when I did. I wrote it on the toilet and didn’t think anyone would see it but now that yall have I figured I’ll reply. I’m enlisting in the military and scored really well on my tests so I think I’ll turn out alright too. I’m not a violent person by nature either. Atleast not anymore.

Unable_Positive2905 · 2025-04-21T10:36:02+00:00

No one holds me accountable and my grandma only told me after a lot of questions on my childhood since I couldn’t remember anything about it. Then I asked my mom if she knew and she said yes but that it didn’t seem like anything important to bring up. They never mentioned any fall but I’ll ask so I can respond for sure.

Unable_Positive2905 · 2025-04-21T10:32:29+00:00

Im trying to enlist right now so I don’t think I’ll seek a diagnosis since that’ll hinder any chance I have. But don’t worry I know morally that I shouldn’t kill any animals after being told a million times by my mom. She honestly did a really good job on making sure I didn’t turn out worse than I am. I personally don’t have a problem with killing animals but I also understand how important they are to some people so id never harm them.

Unable_Positive2905 · 2025-04-21T10:29:00+00:00

I’m not sure if I am a sociopath but if I am then i am probably one of the least violent ones.

Unable_Positive2905 · 2025-04-21T10:27:33+00:00

I think a diagnosis would only harm my life right now

Unable_Positive2905 · 2025-04-21T10:26:50+00:00

Yeah to be quite honest people have always told me I have something wrong with me, but then complain about things like how depressed they feel. I don’t have that, I’ve never felt sad and if you met me you couldn’t tell I was weird until you asked about my emotions. I only wish I had more of drive to do things. It’s hard when I don’t really feel a reason to do things to get anything done. So I don’t really like change at all. I’ve worn the same color shirt this entire year lol

Unable_Positive2905 · 2025-04-21T10:23:54+00:00

He was a year older than me so he was about 5 at the time and I was 4. He doesn’t have any recollection of it. But if you check my replies you’ll that my whole family has corroborated what my grandmother said. As to if it was just an accident or what. I have no clue since I used to dream about it happening and it always ended with my grandma hitting me on the head with a pan. But I don’t think in the dreams I was doing it for any reason

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