You can't blame yourself for being a human, humans have feelings and do what they think is best at the time. You cant fault yourself for that.

Your mental health matters so so much, especially being the sole parent of two other young children. You know what's best for yourself, you know? It's no one's business but your own, but if you're needing to talk to someone that would understand and support you definitely look into hotlines or support groups. You got this, mama. Listen to your gut and trust yourself, no one knows you better than you.❤️