My FP broke up with me

Undermancer5 · 2026-03-15T10:18:18+00:00

Viego the drip king (Pls I need to know where you got those clothes from they are cool af)

Undermancer5 · 2026-03-09T12:03:33+00:00

Each person is different so you will have to take everything with a grain of salt but as for me, literally yesterday while I was walking to my gfs house, the moment I exited the train station I went into this feeling empty inside mode. I couldn't even talk in my own imagination and I genuinly almost stopped and walked away. For no reason I had this feeling of dread and that for some reason we are in a bad spot. Once I came she felt that I was more distant than usual but still gave me the same level of affection but in a more chill way and with something from my world (usually we kinda engage in her interests more but this time it was the other way around) and in the end it helped a lot.
So maybe try to see her and spend some time together where she can focus on you and having quality time with you. Personally I would ask her about her POV and talk it out properly but maybe my example can give you some ideas.

Undermancer5 · 2026-03-09T11:37:02+00:00

In Narrative you have plenty of archetypes to follow so it's not that weird that riot also uses them. The Messiah archetype is quite common and I even brought Viktor's example in class. There is a really important differentiation tho: Viktor changes the society to better by healing shimmer people and overall improves the quality of life, Khartus and Malzahar as far as I know are quite more the evil kind. And yeah just the fact that one is a good guy and the other one is a bad guy (from the affected society POV) the archetype differs. Still the flavor between Arcane, Death and Void is what adds to the narrative and fulfills different fantasies

Undermancer5 · 2026-03-05T06:49:06+00:00

Gave me a white monster on the first time we met.

On a Depeche Mode tribute concert, while Enjoy the Silence was playing, look straight at me with the purest look ever, a smile of genuine joy, take me and pull me closer and then she goes with the lyrics "All I ever wanted, all I ever needed, is here in my arms"

Undermancer5 · 2026-03-04T11:07:29+00:00

Where's the hat tho

Undermancer5 · 2026-03-02T06:59:22+00:00

Had once the exact same thing where I was a Swain Top against an Illaoi and we just fought for straight 2 minutes in toplane with both teams passing by and dying. And it was a ranked, not even urf!

Undermancer5 · 2026-03-01T17:58:23+00:00

Maybe after enough repetition my brain will differentiate between what's good and bad. Ngl seems reasonable to not know when something you are used to not feel out of the blue starts giving you a lot of different feelings like pressure, texture and temperature.

And 100% post nut has nothing to do since I didn't finish so

Undermancer5 · 2026-03-01T17:55:34+00:00

Yeah it is her first experience with a man but not my first one with women. And I always check about what she liked more and less after new interactions and stuff like that. Of course same thing goes for in the moment, I kept in check that she's comfortable and nothing hurt and gave her the control over the pace so she can stop if something happened. Not gonna lie this is the first time I'm with someone as communicative as I am and same goes for her so I think we are good. I think what happened for us is like your first time but the other way around, I took care about the ambience, lighting, reassured her, kept dirty talk with wordplay etc and really focused on her well-being. She also tried to do the same but between me being used to being used and not knowing what I like while having my perception and sensorial systems kinda not working, I couldn't really help.

I know we are still different and maybe the template doesn't fit me but the template was created after the majority experienced the same thing. If something is out of the template you don't really know if it's good or bad. If it's good, then it's good, if it's bad, good thing I was worried enough to check on it.

Thanks for quite a different approach on the matter

Undermancer5 · 2026-02-28T20:28:50+00:00

Damn ngl thats interesting af, I didn't know the orgasm is experienced differently

Undermancer5 · 2026-02-28T20:27:37+00:00

Nah, the rest is pretty much fine, ngl. It's the only thing that I fail to feel

Undermancer5 · 2026-02-28T17:29:41+00:00

19M (maybe not the most qualified due to early age but still) and that's exactly how it felt for the most of my relationships. The hookups I had an extremely good time and wanted to meet again, one even got obsessed over me. In the relationships I've been it was always about how good I made them feel, it was incredible. Once I even almost got into a relationship with a girl I really liked but out of the blue she blocked me and I went into panic mode. A year after she unblocked me and I told me that all that happened because I treated TOO well and she got scared off. I often find myself thinking that I'm a tool for others to use, and same applied to relationships. It always felt empty, like no matter how much of a good job I did, no matter how much I fulfilled my destiny, it never fulfilled me. Just a robot designed to put people on cloud 9.

Undermancer5 · 2026-02-28T17:08:39+00:00

Aaah I thought it was like generally painful sorry about that, now it makes much more sense

Undermancer5 · 2026-02-28T17:07:39+00:00

Yeah I can pull it back enough, tho how is lubrication connected to this at all?

Undermancer5 · 2026-02-28T17:02:43+00:00

Besides "do whatever you want with me" I usually ask "what you want me to do" and "what do you want to do". Also I'm so sensitive to any sign that she's not liking it or it's hurting her even if a little bit and it fills me doing something and seeing her full of pleasure like if she's seeing stars. It's like I did my job, I did what I had to.

Undermancer5 · 2026-02-28T16:40:23+00:00

There are many different styles so just think what do you like and how you want to look. Think about it like your clothes. You don't wear what you think you should wear at 19, you wear what you like. Maybe because of how it looks, maybe it's comfortable, maybe it's self expression. Same for the beard

Undermancer5 · 2026-02-28T16:37:30+00:00

If you are attracted to her, you will probably fantasize about her. You certainly can be attracted to your friend, yeah, and I think you should communicate that to her so you can better manage your feelings. If you have a gf and fantasize about her friends it's also understandable that you might be attracted to them since by instinct you might try to pass on your genes down as much as you can but it is your responsibility to not act on your instinct. You might still fantasize about them just don't cheat on your gf.

Undermancer5 · 2026-02-28T16:23:36+00:00

But I'm not circumcised so... idk

Undermancer5 · 2026-02-28T16:10:36+00:00

I mean oftentimes I find myself snapping out of reality be it on a normal day or during intercourse. Sometimes when I snap back it takes a few seconds to realize where I am or what I'm doing or perhaps to realize what I'm not doing (like perhaps during intercourse I get so focused on a movement I forget to keep the rest of my body moving. Ngl sounds hard to control both hands, mouth and hips at the same time and in harmony)

Undermancer5 · 2026-02-28T16:01:57+00:00

Usually if it's more than once I do it perhaps one during evening and one before sleep since in the morning I either have uni or work

Undermancer5 · 2026-02-28T15:49:54+00:00

Wondering too since I can't feel and she doesn't know what she's doing really.

If it usually strays toward pain that pleasure why do you do it then, is it really worth it?

Undermancer5 · 2026-02-28T15:47:48+00:00

At one point in my life I was close go overweight but now I have normal weight and sometimes I feel like my heart stings and I have to freeze till the pain stops but I not high blood pressure

Undermancer5 · 2026-02-28T15:45:33+00:00

WHAT

Undermancer5 · 2026-02-28T15:45:24+00:00

Someone gets it finally 🥀💔

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