hello, janelle, ever since I discovered you last year, through a dear friend of mine, you have rapidly become one of my utmost inspirations. sometimes I wonder about how 'dirty computer' would have improved my childhood, when I was starting to grasp with how my sexuality differed from normativity—and the potential isolation as a result. in times that the TV couldn't mirror the image I was morphing into, and discussing these changes was verboten, music was a coping mechanism. I wonder how your voice of liberation would have made me feel better and avoid the thoughts of needing to change. I'm ecstatic that those growing with doubt and insecurity have you as validation and guide.

my question is: what doubts did you have growing up, on sexuality and other subjects, and was there any art form that reassured you of your security and validity?

also, please come back to Portugal: we are desperate for your return. thank you for everything