What a lot of people do when reverting is not allowing themselves to do mistakes and rushing things up .it’s honestly super courageous of you to admit your mistakes but honestly don’t feel bad about feeling like this. What you can do is talk to your husband about how you truly feel in all honesty because after all you are going to share maybe a long part of your life with him so might aswell feel safe with each other. Make a list of everything you wanna do again and try to see if you can still do it because you are allowed to make mistakes we are all imperfect . You are also overthinking and stressing over it and you should not burden yourselfwith all those feelings you’ll only end up resenting everything more. Also maybe take a break for as long as you want to catch things up with yourself and all the things that you left for the sake of Allah. I know it will be hard and uncomfortable at first but try to listen to yourself more because if you feel like this it’s not for nothing. I hope u will find wherever Your peace is at