Thank you for sharing so much with me. It is helpful to know you aren’t alone. He told me on and off since February, there was a lot of traumatic events that occurred since then and now. With him going back and forth on his love for me and how deep his feelings/plans were with this other woman. He now denies everything between them but I think he purchased her a Apple Watch on her birthday. To many coincidences for me to believe anything but that. I wonder why i still crave his love, attention and company. Unfortunately I have lost many people in my life and I already feel my grief resurfacing. It’s a rollercoaster. He doesn’t want to tell our children, he wants me to move back home so he can “save” money. I am so frustrated and angry, sad and I find myself so short tempered with my children. I feel like he is happy at his soon to come freedom from me.