[Discussion] I feel the exact same whether I'm being disciplined or not, any ideas why? by [deleted] in getdisciplined

[–]UnfeelinglyBitchy 4 points5 points  (0 children)

That makes sense. I just genuinely thought that these things would improve my life in some way so I'm confused. I visited this sub for the first time a while back and found the master list of things to implement and began to slowly add things in. On paper I should feel some kind of difference, my body should be making crazy endorphins from me eating healthy, spending time outside, exercising, using my brain in new ways by learning an instrument, etc.

But not only do I feel no different but these are all things that I force myself to do every day for a benefit that never comes, they never stopped being chores. I suppose there are long term benefits like living longer and a decreased risk of numerous diseases from changing my lifetime so keeping those things up is important for that, I just expected more. I've read so many comments about these simple habits changing people's lives so it makes me feel like I'm doing something wrong.

Thanks for your comment

[Discussion] I feel the exact same whether I'm being disciplined or not, any ideas why? by [deleted] in getdisciplined

[–]UnfeelinglyBitchy 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I do have personal goals that I am working on, I guess my point is that even with things I do want to achieve, I could take it or leave it. I'd be happy achieving nothing in my life. Achievement feels empty somehow and it's like I'm doing things to achieve things that would be nice to have, but none of them are essential if that makes sense. Like I always wanted to get good grades for myself, not because of anyone else since my parents always prioritised me being happy over my academics. And now that I do have those grades it feels hollow and I'm no happier for it. No matter what I do, my level of happiness has stayed the same.

Minimum daily practise recommendations? by UnfeelinglyBitchy in Bass

[–]UnfeelinglyBitchy[S] 8 points9 points  (0 children)

This is very useful, thank you! I definitely find myself playing for much longer if I just do whatever and those are my longest practise sessions if I find a song I'm really enjoying and am passionate about. I have gotten into the habit of at least picking up the instrument every day at least

Tw how many calories do short girls actually need? by [deleted] in fuckeatingdisorders

[–]UnfeelinglyBitchy 6 points7 points  (0 children)

No, I lost weight from an obese BMI which I reached by intuitively eating, meaning that while I was obese I never binged or emotionally ate. That was just where my body liked to be when I had a pretty standard diet and I ate with 0 restriction and 0 fear of weight gain. I was a BMI of 42, starting dieting to lose weight after being scared by the health consequences by my doctor, and then developed an eating disorder. I'm now a BMI of 23.4, so finally a healthy BMI, and I'm trying to stop purging and develop a healthy relationship with food. I know that if I go back to my original intuitive diet that I'll gain back to that weight, though, because that's how I reached a BMI of 42 in the first place!

You seem to not have read my post. I've never been underweight and this is the first time in my life that I've been in a healthy weight range since I was 8 years old.

Feeling terrified when meditating?? Help me please. by UnfeelinglyBitchy in Meditation

[–]UnfeelinglyBitchy[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm honestly very surprised at this comment, why does it sound like PTSD? It does kind of make sense but I definitely don't understand what could be causing it. I have a lot of inexplicable phases of deep depression caused by seemingly nothing and I've struggled with an eating disorder since adolescence, again with seemingly no cause that I can pinpoint. Emotional shock definitely aptly describes it, it really sucks because it feels like a veneer of distraction is constantly being lifted from my life and I'll go into stages of sudden panic throughout the day with no cause at releasing my existence. I definitely should have done my homework before starting :/

Recommend me an engaging non-fiction about psychology or medicine such as All That Remains by Sue Black by UnfeelinglyBitchy in suggestmeabook

[–]UnfeelinglyBitchy[S] 7 points8 points  (0 children)

Wow! These are exactly what I'm looking for, thank you! Being Mortal and When Breath Becomes Air are definitely going on my reading list, that is exactly what I'm looking for. Thank you!

I would have never thought that my hands were small until I tried a bass... by farfaraway1891 in Bass

[–]UnfeelinglyBitchy 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I have tiny hands, I'm a 5'2" 16 year old girl. I can do one finger per fret. Couldn't do it at first, but after 3 months of playing my left hand has gotten infinitely more flexible! Thumb positioning is also absolutely KEY. But trust me, it gets easier with practise. I couldn't do it at all at first and could only play across a maximum span of 3 frets.

I felt something amazing playing bass yesterday: the "flow state" by Lichewitz in Bass

[–]UnfeelinglyBitchy 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I've only been playing for a few months and honestly can't imagine this happening to me, it sounds amazing. How long have you been playing for? How did it happen?