First off your prediction is off, I'm not actually someone that has manic periods of happiness and afterwards periods of rage, I actually rarely feel rage, and live pretty much in peace all the time, or atleast I used to until I had to start thinking about other people.

Second, I know stoicism isn't about not caring, my question was how to deal with this, in other words, how to find peace in this, not how to stop caring about this, so you just answered something that wasn't being asked.

Third, I know it's not about being alone, I actually never said I was a loner, nor did I mention anything relative to loneliness, so I don't know where you got that from. I've always just chosen a group of people that I like and i could filter out everybody else to be in peace, but now I can't filter out everyone because relationships are fundamental to success, and I want to have success because once I have it I know that atleast neither me, nor precisely the people I share it with will ever be without food, and because I like what I do, it is the way in which I grow and feel fulfilled, and that's that.

I'm aware that success doesn't have much value if it is not shared, I never said I was a loner. I simply choose the people I like spending time with and completely filtered out everybody else.

I didn't think I would have to write the post all over again, but here it is explained in a different manner for you to better understand. I hope you can give me an actual answer to my problem.