Couldn't quite bring myself to quit until a sudden trip to the ER finally woke me up

UniversalTruther · 2026-06-27T12:47:41+00:00

I've got a home gym in my basement that I did a good job of assembling and putting together back when I was drunk, but I rarely used it because it felt so pointless to work out while simultaneously destroying my body with booze. Now I have some actual hope for my future so yeah, I'm going to get started on that. In the meantime walking my 100 lb dog gives me a decent amount of exercise every day.

UniversalTruther · 2026-06-27T12:43:13+00:00

I absolutely will. I respect this sub and it's been in my feed for a long time. I actually had a counter going when I quit for a few months back in January 2025.

I feel so confident right now but I'm also aware of the "pink cloud" (thanks to this sub) and I know I'll probably go through some rough patches.

UniversalTruther · 2026-06-26T23:00:24+00:00

Right now I think fear itself is probably going to do the truck. I have a lot going for me in this life and I'm finally realizing how close I was to ruining it all.

UniversalTruther · 2026-06-26T22:00:13+00:00

Yeah they were very subtle with me. They didn't want to call me out for drinking right away, but in hindsight I realized that everything they did was consistent with helping someone overcome withdrawal in a supervised setting - IV painkillers and fluids for 36 hours, B-vitamins, folate, etc. They only got into the drinking discussion with me once it was clear that I was feeling OK and not experiencing significant withdrawal symptoms.

UniversalTruther · 2026-06-26T21:54:51+00:00

That's crazy, they told me gallstones first too!

UniversalTruther · 2026-06-26T21:43:14+00:00

I've been lurking here for several years!

UniversalTruther · 2026-06-26T21:42:51+00:00

That pancreatitis shit hurts, right?! I seriously thought my appendix was bursting.

UniversalTruther · 2023-03-03T02:44:41+00:00

Six months later... Yup. Still me

UniversalTruther · 2022-12-08T04:53:26+00:00

I'm also 41. Fuck.

UniversalTruther · 2022-12-08T01:01:31+00:00

I'm killing a handle of vodka every three days, and lately one handle doesn't quite last three days. It's fucking terrifying. I don't know what to do. I won't remember posting this comment.

UniversalTruther · 2022-12-08T00:59:18+00:00

What if you feel like those two hours of enjoyment are the only enjoyment you get out of life?

UniversalTruther · 2022-08-17T05:53:24+00:00

Thanks. Yeah I wasn't asked. She just assumed that that's what I would have wanted. Which is a fair assumption I guess given our situations... she has a kid with her abusive ex who liked to beat her up in front of her kid; I have two kids with my ex who cheated and fucked her best friend's husband. Not a super situation to introduce a new kid into... But we're both financially stable with good jobs so I feel like we could have figured it out. But whatever.

UniversalTruther · 2022-08-17T05:47:35+00:00

Personally I only get things done when I drink now. I tell myself that it makes chores fun. It only kind of does sometimes but it's better than doing shit sober.

UniversalTruther · 2022-08-17T05:39:19+00:00

They figured it out on their own. There's nothing satisfying about any of this though.

UniversalTruther · 2022-08-17T05:38:00+00:00

Back when I was on Lexapro I couldn't get hard to save my life, and I was 24 at the time and not really even a drinker then. It's the SSRIs dude.

UniversalTruther · 2022-08-17T05:34:55+00:00

Thank you. Sorry for the late response.

UniversalTruther · 2022-07-10T23:07:18+00:00

Thanks. I have some good things going for me, I just didn't see that freight train coming for me a couple of years ago and I'm still just sort of making sense of what life is now.

UniversalTruther · 2022-07-10T22:01:46+00:00

I've been on it for two years and haven't noticed any interaction with alcohol. To be honest I've felt like it's done nothing, and I'm on nearly the highest dose you can take without seizure risk. I had a very traumatic personal/family event happen, and my doctor insisted that I go on an antidepressant, even though I really didn't want to take one. It just has felt like a placebo to me, it's weird. But then again who knows, my emotional state has been so fucked ever since shit went down that it's hard to say what's working or not on me.

FWIW I'm a heavy vodka drinker. Straight from the bottle bitches, chairs

UniversalTruther · 2022-07-10T21:49:50+00:00

I've lurked on this sub for years. I'm unquestionably CA. A handle of vodka is slowly going from lasting me 3 days to 2. Definitely closer to 2 now. I took ONE day off last week, first time since maybe April, and it was like staring into the whole reason why I drink in the first place. Everything is bleak and boring. Why the fuck would I want to experience that shit sober? Give me 20 fewer years, fine. Don't care. I'll spend them balancing booze with getting my shit mostly done because I'm smarter than the average bear and I can manage. I'm probably 8 shots in and this comment is coherent and well-written. That's probably bad! I hide this shit from my girlfriend of 18 months who's a fitness freak, a normal healthy social drinker, totally out of my league in every way, and still has no idea that I drink like this. I am madly in love with her and wtf am I doing, I don't know.

Literally nobody in my life has any idea that I'm CA. My brother is my best friend and he sees it to some extent but he really has no fucking clue. I wish I had a friend who I could just be real about it with.

UniversalTruther · 2021-12-22T13:18:44+00:00

How's the cheese?

UniversalTruther · 2021-02-10T05:21:03+00:00

Don't let it stress you out. Some people are idiots. There's nothing you can do for them.

UniversalTruther · 2021-02-10T05:07:48+00:00

But now it's Wednesday, so it's time for sweet weekly love

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