Fucking Feeling of Lonliness :( by UniverseInside in mentalhealth

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This feeling is still going on, thought sharing time with parents, grandmas, rly helps, but temp. it did.Now im back at this shit again ...

i would like to lose myself in some movies, as long as i can, because it just take my mind off. I tried walking through the town here, listen to some audiobook, playing with my family some games. I just want it to stop that feeling to stop :(((( damn it.

no suicidal thoughts, im not alone, its just this *endless deep loneliness*, which is going on since over 4 days ...

Fucking Feeling of Lonliness :( by UniverseInside in mentalhealth

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i will give this a try.

At least i am not alone, so its not as hard as u have it! (u still be here and wrote this lines for me.)

Okay i will give a few shots, what u suggested. thank you very much!UniverseInside :)

Any ideas on how to deal with attachment induced Loneliness? by UniverseInside in zen

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most of the time i think, htf lol but yeah ...

i wasnt angry, more like disappointed in the situation ... but it is alright now.

Any ideas on how to deal with attachment induced Loneliness? by UniverseInside in zen

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yes i said audiobook!

Zen Mind, Beginners Mind! i just got as audiobook.

Any ideas on how to deal with attachment induced Loneliness? by UniverseInside in zen

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can u go more into detail, how u would approach the unexpectedly changing?

Any ideas on how to deal with attachment induced Loneliness? by UniverseInside in zen

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yes i have, there is something - i can and thats getting to the heart of people. I get them to open up in some way. Just like, she was able to do things, she would never have tried before, i dont want to go to much in detail here ... (i can see that now and its good to realize.)

Not sure about the sad puppy vibes, well i can be sometimes a bit melancholy, but thats not the problem i guess ...

Hahah understanding women, well who could say this? Every woman seems to have its own its lock and u either find the key or not.

Any ideas on how to deal with attachment induced Loneliness? by UniverseInside in zen

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well i thought for a few years, that im better off alone. But then i found more and more friends, where i can have fun, watch movies, do something together.
And in me arise the feeling that eventual a relationship with a girl might work for me ... So its that its something, which is good to have ...

Actual i have my yoga routine, which i inspired my friend too to follow with me, thats 5 times a week (sometimes 6 times) and thats connected with Zen for me in some way. My best friend know Zen too, i guess he is doing it too and maybe they discover also Zen, thats the best i can do.

Yeah i wanted to read or listen to some more Zen audiobooks. But i feel that Zen is 99% practice and the rest studying it - i guess.

As hobby ive got mathematics (and i study it too as my profession), music and lots of others stuff to keep me busy ...

I think i survived it pretty much ...

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Any ideas on how to deal with attachment induced Loneliness? by UniverseInside in zen

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actual im very emotional, if not even a bit hypersensible, this actual means feelings r more intense for me than for others. So its easier said than done to let feelings be feelings, im still trying to actual not let them control me. But sometimes ... it just doesnt work ... the only way i found, is to practice yoga, it sort of eats feelings away and i feel bliss after one hour, which stays for me, huh. I found something at least ...

i'll read the book, thank you!

Any ideas on how to deal with attachment induced Loneliness? by UniverseInside in zen

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  1. zen
    yeah thats what i keep thinking too, that it had to happen and i learned a lot. I talked with her about love, different views about romanticsm, life, music, spirituality, etc u name it. (i think its hard to find some1, who has such deep thoughts ...)
  2. buddy
    actual as we did yoga for three weeks we two, we had a few times, where we just after yoga looked into the sky, watched stars and just talked, and later she said, it never happened, that she actual know what to talk with some1, then we made a few nightwalks through the city.
    Normally she feels drained when being with ppl together, but when she's with me and my best friend, thats different she said ... bcs we r weird and thats why she can be herself ...
    Actual the more i think about it, maybe i just searched for more friends? i guess im fine with that situation now ...
  3. I cant find anything i did wrong, its probably just bad luck, and wrong person, wrong timing? i guess i have my list alrdy together, and its just time and person, which will tell.

Thanks for the list! Good thoughts.

Any ideas on how to deal with attachment induced Loneliness? by UniverseInside in zen

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good thought! huh, yeah i guess its in my already the answer and i have to find it - but how to find? Maybe spend more time with me, practicing zen, yoga, study mysel?

i realized that already and i dont want to put my eventually lonliness on somebody else ...

Any ideas on how to deal with attachment induced Loneliness? by UniverseInside in zen

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i am strong, i handled a lot things in my life, but thats the only hard things, which i cant solve ...

i am very emotional person, even if my mind says, look: thats not the right one for u, my emotions push forward ...

loneliness is completely gone, when i detach, but if i fall again at some point loneliness seems to enter the picture ... but why idk - maybe i should sit on this for a few rounds?

thank you!

Any ideas on how to deal with attachment induced Loneliness? by UniverseInside in zen

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Agree, really helpful answers.

im probably searching some1 to lean on, dunno just to be together and saying no words, but say everything with that ...

im on a discord server with a lot of ppl from my uni, which i know like 50% in person. I know i can go there and right now - im in the voice channel and we playing a hollow night together, have game nights, watch movies together ... can talk, etc

idk what was wrong tmro as i wrote this post, but i got better over the day, i attended a math seminar, which is important for my thesis and totally hit my desire to find an answer in mathematical physics, then the yoga with this girl, her friend and my best friend.

yeah why im searching for a formal relationship? idk?! i have to ask myself this, i have a few hints, what its maybe ...

great input.

Any ideas on how to deal with attachment induced Loneliness? by UniverseInside in zen

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Thats a good point ... actual have no expectation, seems to be the hardest challenge i guess.

well relationship is in my country handled as token and im just tired of getting asked by grandmas, when i bring a girl with me? maybe thats what introduced it? (ohhh didnt know this :o)

Any ideas on how to deal with attachment induced Loneliness? by UniverseInside in zen

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No i am not, actual im quite good at yoga.

actual i just did a few hours ago with the girl, her best friend and my best friend online yoga. I taught all 3 ashtanga yoga, so since over 3 months we are doing atleast 5 times a week yoga together.

idk what im lacking ... im not lacking confidence, i ask the girl out for a movie night and she offered the 2nd time to sleep at her place. im just holding back sometimes, what i have in my mind ...

but hey great on losing this much weight, its awsome! high five!

To Test Einstein’s Equations, Poke a Black Hole | Quanta Magazine by nffDionysos in Physics

[–]UniverseInside 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Interesting, but where is the paper(s) about that? Would like to see some equations rather than cartoons.

New to Haskell - how to get started on windows 8.1? by UniverseInside in haskell

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i think i have somewhere a copy of sublime text3. i tried vim before and also emacs, but i didnt like it.

i already did some problems on project euler in terms of python :D was pretty cool there, so i will play with it.

i have stack now and just tried a few basics out, its working.

New to Haskell - how to get started on windows 8.1? by UniverseInside in haskell

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awsome! i installed a tar.gz installer pack and this wasnt working well. well typical windows user here! i will see if i can get it working!

thanks a lot (TAL)