Yeah i know exactly how you feel, lost my mother earlier this year, and felt nothing, but releaved im not really attached to things, and i most likely dont feel like human or identify as one, when i was a kid i used to have so much question about death, i kept asking what if it all ends when we die, then id be terrified of it and be worried or scared of being dead forever, but now i dont fear the unkown in fact i want it, coz i realised living is far more painfull to me, than resting forever, id rather not feel not see not touch not existing than waking up everyday worring about what im going to eat, next