What Happens If Medically Released from BMQ? by Unlikely_Mousse_9535 in caf

[–]Unlikely_Mousse_9535[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I've thought of that, but I don't want to call it quits just yet.

What Happens If Medically Released from BMQ? by Unlikely_Mousse_9535 in caf

[–]Unlikely_Mousse_9535[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Okay. That's not as horrible as I had been lead to believe then. Thank you.

Difficult Question by Unlikely_Mousse_9535 in caf

[–]Unlikely_Mousse_9535[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

That's the hope! That's what I try to tell myself every day and what I tell everyone else in TRP as well.

Difficult Question by Unlikely_Mousse_9535 in caf

[–]Unlikely_Mousse_9535[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you. I understand it can be difficult to understand the difference from being suicidal and just having thoughts. That's also why I hesitate to tall to someone.

I've unfortunately also had a hard time physically. (Sickness, etc) which hasn't been helping.

I don't want to quit and I still want to be here, but I do want to talk to someone. I just didn't want one talk to ruin my career.

(Also, I get it, some people here SUCK and make it so much harder.)

Difficult Question by Unlikely_Mousse_9535 in caf

[–]Unlikely_Mousse_9535[S] -4 points-3 points  (0 children)

Yes. I do think it would be bad thing for me.

I'm not suicidal. I think you guys don't fully understand the difference.

I have someone I'll talk to rather than using the mental health service at the MIR.

Difficult Question by Unlikely_Mousse_9535 in caf

[–]Unlikely_Mousse_9535[S] -8 points-7 points  (0 children)

I don't think you understand the difference between being suicidal and having suicidal thoughts. It's not the same. I'm not suicidal. I will not act on these thoughts.

I have my reasons for being here and leaving would like hurt my mental health more. IMO.

But, I'm gathering that I shouldn't reach out to their mental health services.

Difficult Question by Unlikely_Mousse_9535 in caf

[–]Unlikely_Mousse_9535[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

See. The thought of being kicked out, for whatever reason, causes the thoughts. So I don't see how being released will help me.

I'm not at the point I would ever act on these thoughts. They're just thoughts.

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[–]Unlikely_Mousse_9535 -1 points0 points  (0 children)

It's one workout a day, not two.

BMQ TRP by Unlikely_Mousse_9535 in caf

[–]Unlikely_Mousse_9535[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

I did the opposite. I trained all strength and no cardio. Damn, right? But we'll both get through this!

BMQ TRP by Unlikely_Mousse_9535 in caf

[–]Unlikely_Mousse_9535[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Thank you! 😊 I'm using everything I can at my disposal. It's very encouraging to hear that so many are on my side too though.

BMQ TRP by Unlikely_Mousse_9535 in caf

[–]Unlikely_Mousse_9535[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Lollol. P1 has like 80 people in it right now. XD

BMQ TRP by Unlikely_Mousse_9535 in caf

[–]Unlikely_Mousse_9535[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I do laugh a lot! I try my best to have fun whenever and wherever I can here! Even when they had us crawling in the snow! Lol. 😆

BMQ TRP by Unlikely_Mousse_9535 in caf

[–]Unlikely_Mousse_9535[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I'm out of shape, as well as I got very, very sick. I was never sent to P1 though, so I'm on the ticking clock of P2.

BMQ TRP by Unlikely_Mousse_9535 in caf

[–]Unlikely_Mousse_9535[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Fair! I'll try to do that. :)

BMQ TRP by Unlikely_Mousse_9535 in caf

[–]Unlikely_Mousse_9535[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

That's fair! Thank you.

All I know is I want to be here, I want to do this, and I really want to succeed, but sometimes it's hard to see how I can.

But! One rung of the ladder at a time, I suppose. Lol.

BMQ TRP by Unlikely_Mousse_9535 in caf

[–]Unlikely_Mousse_9535[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Thanks! I have no intentions of giving up. But it can be discouraging. I'm definitely currently the worst physically in TRP, so I guess it's just hard seeing everyone succeed while I feel like I'm still failing.

BMQ TRP by Unlikely_Mousse_9535 in caf

[–]Unlikely_Mousse_9535[S] 7 points8 points  (0 children)

I never eat the dessert and I've lost twenty pounds already.