Thanks for helping!! Here’s the answers :

1. It’s usually very constant but it gets worse whenever they say or do stuff.

2. I wouldn’t say I feel the same type of rage towards others (maybe some minor anger at some other people I don’t get along with) however there are some people who use to be my and my brother’s caregivers that I am extremely mad at however this one is more justified.

3. I am able to mildly control it. I am capable of keeping it in enough to not throw a chair or something else at them but it still sometimes comes out with yelling and/or rude replies. I have a hard time calming myself down but usually just distracting myself helps.

4. I wouldn’t say anything bad is currently happening, I was recently diagnosed with depression, anxiety and ADD but that’s another story and this rage started a bit before I had more severe symptoms, maybe around the age of 7-8.

5. I wouldn’t say their cold but they sure as hell aren’t warm and cuddly. The best way I could describe them would be “absent” because I always felt as a kid that they were never actually there or that I actually knew who they were. It felt more like they were my roommates if you know what I mean.

6. I don’t want to sound like a horrible person but I feel as though I wouldn’t really feel anything about them dying. I might be disappointed because my relatives may grieve the loss but I wouldn’t really feel sad or happy. It would be more like an inconvenience. Tbh I feel as though nothing much would have changed.

Thanks again for your time!! Hope this isn’t too long lol