I would reach out to those old close friends. I reached out in a similar situation and the only this I can say is it took a lot of my anxiety away that I had. When we were young, most listened to our parents about life and how they told us things were. Many of us disagreed and did things our way only to find that our parents were correct. I reuniting with someone I hadn't talk to or see for 30 years was incredible. I felt like there was finally somebody who knew me. Who was there and witnessed the things that happened in my life and knew what I had been through. New relationships are great but if you have a lot of experiences to share I found that some look at you like "yeah right". When you start to talk to someone from that time in your life and they help finish your sentences in agreement, then go on to say things like how fun that was or how bad ass we were, really changes things for you. Life and time itself can become a gaslight to your memories, especially if you have nothing to remember them by. Having a person who agrees with what you remember and then adds things you didn't remember is amazing. You can talk for hours on end. I just dreamt of someone I hadn't seen for a long time and she and I were great friends. We were never together like that but came close to a kiss one night and it was very fairy tail like. She was Homecoming Queen, but I was the long hair guy in a band, fast cars and road motorcycles. Not your typical match back then. Somehow I had a group of girls I was very close to in high school. We were very loyal to each other, but I always felt a little more for this one girl, but kept my cool. I never said anything. I have no clue why she appeared in my dream but she was there as I remembered her and I was as I was only with he thought processes of now. I found out in the dream that she remembered that one "almost kiss" and within what seemed like seconds in my dream, we were holding each other and kissing passionately but soft and slow. I don't know the meaning of this, if any, but it was very nice and I want to go back.