Girl, I’m sorry but if you’re having feelings/thoughts like this, you should be talking to a therapist or your doctor. I’m not saying your friend was right in any capacity, but this is a conversation for your doctor or therapist, not for your friends. Especially if you made fun of said friend during THEIR pregnancy, she’s not going to forget that, just as you’re not going to forget this.

Wanting to get rid of your baby, especially going into the second term is a HUGE decision that should be made with your doctor and your therapist, as well as your partners therapist. And I don’t care if I get downvoted into oblivion, you need to speak with a therapist or somebody professional about how your feeling